I am not sure what I should do. I do not want to involve my family at this point because I don't want to totally freak them out.
A little background. My husband and I just bought a home. I am not working because I am in a full time credential program. This is a huge strain on us financially. I will be done with the credential in May 2010.
So I will begin my student teaching on Monday but, for the last two weeks I have lost complete interested in teaching. I don't know what happened but I just don't feel excited about it anymore. I received my ba in psychology and had thought I would go into counseling but decided to go into special education instead after I had been a teachers aide for 2 years. Now, I feel like I may have made the wrong decision.
My options are (1) keep in the program, go majorly in dept and hope that I am happy with teaching after I am finished. or (2) I have found 4 jobs that I am very qualified for at the community college that I am interested in, they are in the student services department. I could work there and then go back to school part time when my daughter gets a little older as a masters student for counseling psychology and hopefully work my way into a college counseling position after graduation. Taking one of these jobs if I get them would pull us out of the finical debt and we would be very comfortable. I would however not have as much time off to spend with my daughter because of less vacation time.
When I think about the second one I get really excited but, I feel guilty that I have spent the last year taking courses towards something I may not finish. And I am afraid that this is going on because I am getting cold feet or something.
Help!! Very Confused
Thank you
Megan
A little background. My husband and I just bought a home. I am not working because I am in a full time credential program. This is a huge strain on us financially. I will be done with the credential in May 2010.
So I will begin my student teaching on Monday but, for the last two weeks I have lost complete interested in teaching. I don't know what happened but I just don't feel excited about it anymore. I received my ba in psychology and had thought I would go into counseling but decided to go into special education instead after I had been a teachers aide for 2 years. Now, I feel like I may have made the wrong decision.
My options are (1) keep in the program, go majorly in dept and hope that I am happy with teaching after I am finished. or (2) I have found 4 jobs that I am very qualified for at the community college that I am interested in, they are in the student services department. I could work there and then go back to school part time when my daughter gets a little older as a masters student for counseling psychology and hopefully work my way into a college counseling position after graduation. Taking one of these jobs if I get them would pull us out of the finical debt and we would be very comfortable. I would however not have as much time off to spend with my daughter because of less vacation time.
When I think about the second one I get really excited but, I feel guilty that I have spent the last year taking courses towards something I may not finish. And I am afraid that this is going on because I am getting cold feet or something.
Help!! Very Confused

Thank you
Megan





I think you should take one of the jobs and get the debt paid off. Then, once you've had a chance to step back, decide how you want to continue. Things are always more difficult when you're under financial stress, so maybe once that weight's off your shoulders, you'll be more sure about what path you want to take.


Obviously, if you really, truly have no interest in teaching, you should leave. Teaching is way too demanding a job to deal with if you don't love it. BUT... you also mention that you start student teaching on Monday. Is it possible that you are really nervous and/or sad to be starting an intense part of your training where you'll have less time for your daughter? You mention that you've felt this way for 2 weeks, and I know people often have a very unexpected mix of emotions prior to starting student teaching. If you've disliked your time in k-12 classrooms thus far in your program, or if you've felt this way for a long time, then there may not be any point in continuing. But if it just came on recently, I might consider that it's a case of nerves, and that you may really love it once you start!
Megan