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[FtMPapa]

Originally Posted by bttrflygypsy

FTMPapa: Can you please move me to Waiting to Know

Yay, Butterfly!

[spcd]

Originally Posted by FtMPapa

I think, if I'm not knocked up, I'll keep taking the progesterone cream, and maybe up the dose and see if I can keep the bleeding at bay until Sunday at least, and then I can come home and get everything done here.

This was going to be my suggestion. We've both used prom*trium suppositories to our advantage to screw with our cycles to our advantage. Why not make it work for you, right? In fact, dp used it to hold off her early loss when we were on vacation, so that we could be somewhere comfortable to grieve. Kinda sick when I think about it.

Not much here. She's not feeling it like last time. Trying to plug away at time. Beta on Sunday.

[astropeep]

Beatie: sounds like all the water you drank. Esp since you had a subsequent +. If it will help you sleep easier, you can get a beta-HCG test. It's not expensive, and should return results same-day. Two beta tests a few days apart will show whether the HCG level is rising correctly.

And of course, this is a safe and proper place for us all to ask questions and share experiences. TTC isn't just fairy dust and good wishes -- it's sadness and disappointment too, and gnawing uncertainty, and all of those at once -- and it's best not to face it alone.

spcd: Fingers are crossed!

AFM: had my eggs harvest today. Went smoothly, less pain than last time (like menstrual cramps), but heavier sedation -- I slept all day. They got 30 eggs (WOW!) Los huevos now been acquainted with four (!) vials of swimmers. Tomorow we'll learn how many fertilized.

[kjm]

Originally Posted by shadow22

What I hate most is dreading to look at the TP every time I go to the washroom!!

I hate to tell ya but I think this didn't stop for my until week 15...and it will probably start back up at week 35!!

[shadow22]

ha! Thanks KJM. I don' think for a minute that I'll stop being neurotic and hyper surveillant once I get knocked up!
Hope you easy into mamahood with very little toilet paper realted anxieties.

[Lyndzies]

osker - DP asked me yesterday if I was feeling any "different" (it was only 2DPO!) and I told her I wanted to try not to play the "pulling you into my imaginary symptoms" world. LOL. We'll see how long that lasts! FX for you and DP, though. Here's hoping here symptoms are real!

shadow22 - I hear you about the TP! I think it's one of the worst parts of the TWW... the day or so before, and the day of AF being due. I feel like I try to will it to stay away, or at least stay inside so I can hold out hope just a little longer... then I realize I just want to see red and get it over w/ if I'm not pg. FX for snowing white TP for you for the next 9 months.

bttrflygypsy - YAY! Woohoo! So glad it was just late O and not a missed opportunity! Welcome to the TWW. (I can't believe how many of us there are!)

FtMPapa - Yippee for stabby pains! I don't think your bean would mind a little cold. I'm sure it's still plenty comfortable in there.

spcd - maybe "not feeling it" is a good thing? Sometimes no news is good news... FX for your beta this weekend. Results on Monday? Any thoughts of testing before that (not that I'm trying to encourage such behavior, just wondering!)

astropeep - holy cow, that's a lot of eggies!

AFM - FF gave me CHs today, yay! And didn't contradict me by saying I Oed on CD18, either. CD17, just as I had thought. SOOOOO, this means my timing was pretty great (rated "high" by FF). Insemed O-3, O-2, O-1, and O! If that's not enough to fertilize an egg, I don't know what is.

I realize it's out of my hands now, but can't help having high hopes. With quite a few of my friends and a family member recently announcing they're pregnant, all the BFPs that have been turning up around these parts, and my early loss in July.... I just am REALLY ready for it to be "my turn," ya know?

Oh what am I saying.... of course y'all know.

I also REALLY love the idea of a late June babe, since it means not being hugely pregnant during the hot and humid Philly summer.

3 days down, 11 to go. Thank goodness I'm busy at work. Hopefully this one will go quickly. I'll be in Memphis for work when AF is due... so at least if she shows up, I'll be distracted. And if she doesn't.... well, I'll be going nuts waiting to POAS till I get home! (the idea of testing w/out DP just seems wrong).

[Beastie]

Thanks, all, for your calming and helpful advice. I am now back to feeling pregnant until proven otherwise, and will therefore stop hogging all the BFPs. Instead, I'm sending them along to all you TWW folks! The truth is, I have an appointment with a midwife in week 8, and there isn't much I can do between now and then than just think sticky thoughts and wait and see. If I do decide to get the beat, I'll certainly let you all know what happens. Plus, thanks to Shadow, I now have a valuable tool for faking drug tests if the need ever arises!

Astropeep! That's a TON of eggs! You must feel so proud of your body. I hope you get all sorts of fertilization happening this week.

So many people waiting for news around here! Osker, Heather's symptoms sound pretty realistic to me. Let us know how thy develop. FTMPapa, I agree with Lyndzies; that bean is just fine through your cold. FX until your next test... Spcd, FX for you too as you wait for your results. Bttrflygypsy, hooray for waiting it out and catching the O! And Lyndzies, great work outsmarting fertility friend: it's clear that you did everything you could, so now it's just the waiting and seeing! Thinking of you all.

Beastie

[Lyndzies]

Just got a note from my friend -- who recently announced she was pregnant-- after inquiring about her first ultrasound:

"We both got to see the baby moving and kicking like crazy! I was thinking about you! I hope you and K. get to experience the same feelings as soon as possible!!!! I’m praying for you! You both deserve to have a little bundle of joy! I hope all is well with the trying period! I don’t want to be nosy…I know it will happen!"

It made me cry. And I can't even blame it on a possible early pregnancy symptom since I'm only 3DPO.

I hope she's right.

[FtMPapa]

Astropeep - WOW! That is A LOT.

Lyndzies - that's really cute.

Beastie - Thanks, we need them over here. Take a deep breath, and try to relax (easier siad that done, I know!)

Me - I tested SIN this morning - somewhat indeterminate negative. I say Indeterminate because the test was streaky, but nothing vertical even resembling a line, just streaky pink from the el chepo tests.

And I went to acupuncture, my first time. He said he could tell I was sick from my pulses, but not if I'm pregnant. He thinks my kidney yang is stagnant, so I'm supposed to do hot things, like eat ginger, drink hot soup, and snuggle with my big dog under our electric blanket and watch TV this afternoon. (Ok, well, he didn't say that, but it's a hot thing, so that's what we're doing.)

I still feel vaguely belly crampy and a little owie, but I really can't tell if it's my usual cramps because the overwhelming sick-sick-sick feeling is making it hard to figure out what I feel.

[jjnoho]

Originally Posted by FtMPapa

and snuggle with my big dog under our electric blanket and watch TV this afternoon. (Ok, well, he didn't say that, but it's a hot thing, so that's what we're doing.)

i think that's exactly what he had in mind when he told you to do hot things!

[Lyndzies]

The (very) immature part of me can't help saying:

I can think of a hot thing to do.

Oh no I didn't.

[osker]

Well said Lyndzies!

[astropeep]

Shit: only 10 of the 30 eggs fertilized. Four vials of sperm weren't enough? Or are my eggs that crappy?

So frustrated. Was hoping to make enough embryos for several transfers, so it wouldn't be so high-pressure. Maybe that's greedy, but given our past failures, I wanted leeway.

Just have to hope that most of the 10 survive to day 3.

[megincl]

Astro -- I'm SO sorry only 10 fertilized. Here's hoping that those 10 make it to day three and you get a fabulous choice of many high-quality embies to implant.

Papa -- enjoy the hot things! Our acupuncturist explicitly suggests having sex at various times. First, she's a big fan of sex, but she really does also see it as healing in many ways -- opening you up, warming you, etc. So, .

AFU -- I turned in my dissertation today!!!!!

Katie does the Ovidrel shot tonight and ER is Saturday morning. Fingers crossed for good results.

be well all,
megin

[FtMPapa]

Astro - at least you were lucky enough to start off with 30 eggs, right?

divide cells, divide!

Let's hope that you won't need to worry about more than one transfer.

[shadow22]

Originally Posted by megincl

Astro -- I'm SO sorry only 10 fertilized. Here's hoping that those 10 make it to day three and you get a fabulous choice of many high-quality embies to implant.

Papa -- enjoy the hot things! Our acupuncturist explicitly suggests having sex at various times. First, she's a big fan of sex, but she really does also see it as healing in many ways -- opening you up, warming you, etc. So, .

AFU -- I turned in my dissertation today!!!!!

Katie does the Ovidrel shot tonight and ER is Saturday morning. Fingers crossed for good results.

be well all,
megin

Congrats on finishing the thesis - i finished mine a few years ago. Now that was a difficult birth!
Papa - I'm sorry you're getting ambiguious results - those are the most frustrating kind. I hope you're at least feeling better?
Beastie - good on you for going full tilt preggers. Why not. Chances are very good this bean will stick so you might as well enjoy what you've got going on.
Astro - I'm new to IVF but isn't 10 ok? Most of my friends who've been through it seemed to have got knocked up with only 4 or 5 fertilized. Obviously you know best your own situation. I'm just asking for educational purposes as IVF might be our next step if this doesn't work.
Speaking of which - I am testing in the morning and I am SOOOOOO anxious about this one. I'm so worked up about it I decided I can't even LOOK at the pee stick so I am going to wrap it in a face cloth and whisk it up to my wife to read which I get my kid off to school. She has strict instructions not to say a WORD until the kid is safely out the door and I can deal with whatever. No big deal right - it's ok if it's negative but PLEASE let it be positive. ok, that's it for my desperation for tonight!

[FtMPapa]

Megin - WOOT!!!!! That's awesome! for the ER.

Ok, Shadow, it's you and me tomorrow. I'm still sick, but I'm teaching tomorrow. If it kills me. It may well.

I say this morning's test wasn't so much ambiguous as just annoyingly unclear in its negativity. I hope for better news tomorrow, but I've really half thrown in the towel on this cycle. It ain't over 'til it's over, but I'm not hugely hopeful.

Then again, I always say that, and then when it is over, the crushing fall into the abyss of disappointment tells me I was more helpful than I was willing to admit.

And I'm no longer going home for the long weekend, so I don't have to worry about fertility and travel conflicts. I decided I was too sick to drive, so I'm staying home and sleeping this weekend.

[osker]

Congratulations Dr. Megin!!! Hooray!!!

[spcd]

Originally Posted by astropeep

Shit: only 10 of the 30 eggs fertilized. Four vials of sperm weren't enough? Or are my eggs that crappy?
.

That is not so bad!! It's probable that some of the 30 were not yet mature - so probably they are of a fine quality, just weren't ready to be harvested. During our ET we got 20 eggs, 15 were mature, 7 fertilized, 1 implanted, 4 frozen. 1 healthy baby boy! 2 used in FET, chemical. 2 used in 2nd FET and......stay tuned! Take care of yourself. I remember feeling sore and bloated for several days! Keep the faith for the transfer and keep us updated.

[FtMPapa]

BFN for me again this morning. *sigh*

Still only 12 DPO, so I'm still waiting a couple more days for a definitive answer.