End of pregnancy jitters

[fyrebloom]

I got them. I'm not worried about the birth, I'm worried about everything else. I'm worried I might have the baby too fast for my partners to get home in time, I'm worried I won't know when the time comes (I've never had spontaneous labor). I'm worried I might not have everything done in time, i'm worried I'm going to go REALLY late and start having everyone and their cousin hounding me about being postdates. I fear I'll have to transfer again and have another c-section. I'm just trying to acknowledge the fears and let them go. I'm feeling great, just jittery and anxious to have this baby! I keep moderating fights between my brain and my heart over doing silly things like taking castor oil and when vs letting the baby come when HE decides to. *sigh* I spoke to my MW today and she was so awesome and really reiterated to me that we've been doing this for a million years and my body knows what to do. I just have to relax and let go, even if the baby comes fast and into my own hands instead of my partners. Even if he's breech or 43 weeks or with the children gathered around the pool. I just have to keep letting go and giving into my body's secret plan for this event. One more week til my due date and possibly a few more til he arrives. May I have the patience to make it!

[Kedrosami]

I'm feeling the same way, trying to let go and give in, as you say. And I think we are due date buddies.

[Serenyd]

I think most of us are a little on edge. Hormones, I guess. Hope you feel better! Good Birthing Vibes

[ecstatic_awareness]

i posted a VERY similar quote a week or two before my magical UC. you are so not alone! i started to freak out about EVERYTHING and found a lot of support just from posting my worries here on MDC and hearing feedback from others who went through the same thing. i just KEPT turning every last concern over to God/nature/my baby/my body and BREATHING and trusting. my favorite verse through the pregnancy was "in returning and rest is our salvation; in quietness and trust is our strength." so helpful! i was stressed about the timing, because the baby ended up coming 2 weeks after my estimated due date, right in the middle of my mom's visit from 3000 miles away--we had timed her visit so that it would be well after the birth, assuming our baby would come early as our firstborn did, since my mom was really scared & wasn't completely supportive of UC, and i didn't want her fear to stress me out & affect the birth. as my mama's arrival date grew closer & closer, i too was thinking of castor oil, had sex with hubby as often as possible hoping that would trigger things (can't hurt, might help!), etc. and then i read about the fact that there is NO "natural" induction--natural labor starts when the baby is 100% ready, and rushing it AT ALL can cause complications. and i know there are no accidents. so i just took a deep breath & released it again & it ended up all working out SO PERFECTLY that i could never possibly have planned or even hoped or imagined it could go so well. i'll post my birth story on here soon. haven't gotten around to it yet.

best of luck to you! your body WILL know exactly what to do. nothing will be able to stop you!



amanda

[reducereuserecycle]

i am feeling the exact same way...and i didn't feel this way last time....maybe it is the fact that i already have a child so that is making my focus go in 2 directions whereas last time, i only had to focus on the child i was birthing. i am hoping to get a lot done this weekend so i will feel more ready. i think that will put my mind at more ease---i hope!

[reducereuserecycle]

i am so sorry...i didn't even mention that i hope you start feeling more at ease...what is it about this end of the pregnancy birthing bubble...seems like all i can think about is myself. anyhow, sorry i just rambled on about how i am feeling and didn't even bother to wish you well

[lzbthcox]

I'm there with you. I've had natural labor start, but I did a hospital birth so now I'm questioning how it would have gone if they hadn't interfered with pit etc. My brain is working overtime. I too have entertained castor oil etc. I know I need to leave it alone and just let the baby come when it comes.. it is just getting so hard. With my vbac, I didn't have any BH's and with this one I've had TONS for the last few weeks. I'm completely psyching myself out at this point. What if I go further past due than my last one (she came at 41 weeks 6 days), what if this baby is bigger, etc etc.

I'm due 10/11 or so and I'm losing it. lol I know we can get through this. We just have to turn our brains off. lol

[ZoraP]

Sending some "chill" vibes everyone's way.

I don't know why this is, but this pg I seem to be in some zen zone that I never was before. My dh is on edge, my kids are calling "Baby, come out!" into my belly several times a day, all my neighbors are saying, "What, you're still here?" and I'm just . . . waiting. And today's my due date

I'm planning to go to our local maternity hospital (a good place where I had a lovely unmedicated birth with no. 2), but if things go precipitously I plan to just have the baby here at home. Dh isn't so happy with that idea but I'd rather do that than give birth in the car. LOL

With both other kids I went for long walks, took EPO, badgered dh to DTD, and generally tried to make things happen. But things happened when the babies were ready, not when I wanted it. So this time I'm just waiting.

Next week we'll probably all be NAKing!

[BroodyWoodsgal]

Zora...I'm sort of in the same boat. I'm almost 34 weeks over here, so not SO close to the end...but feeling really zen as well. From a physical standpoint, I've been having much more pain, etc this time around...so from a physical standpoint, once I get past 37 or so weeks..I'm cool with him coming absolutely any time just to end the pain....but from an emotional standpoint, I feel much "cooler" about the whole thing this time. This pregnancy really flew by, so I don't feel as though I've been pregnant forEVER...and I am really trying to do this time what I didn't do with DDs pregnancy...I'm trying to really soak in and cherish these last few days of my life as it is now. I'm really excited to meet this new person...but I also want to really enjoy these last days of THIS life...with JUST dd.

Plus I'm trying to have as much close time with dd as I can...soon, she'll have to share me..and I'm not as ready for that as maybe I thought I was. I know it'll turn out fine and I'm not DREADING my son coming....but I'm trying to give her as much of me as I can in these last days of her being my only little buddy.

Pregnancy when you already have a baby is so different from pregnancy when expecting your first, I'm finding....the feelings are all so different.

OP...I remember with DDs pregnancy, I turned into a crazy person toward the end...I was having CRAZY thoughts like "I wish my MW would stop being such a witch and just rupture my membranes!" and things like "Oh, thos lucky women with OBs who can just ask for a c/s and get their baby out right when they want to!" - Yeah, I was nuts. I was really fine until like 39 weeks...but things started going way down hill from there...I just wasn't myself at all. But she came when she was ready....I know your baby will too and that your birth will be so blessed and special...keep talking to us, that's what we're here for...we understand where you are coming from...those last weeks, last days...can be so strange.

[fyrebloom]

Originally Posted by lzbthcox

I'm due 10/11 or so and I'm losing it. lol I know we can get through this. We just have to turn our brains off. lol

Hey we're due date buddies! I'm due on sunday as well

I've been feeling better. I'm going for a nice nightly walk alone each evening, and taking my EPO but otherwise just trying to stay comfy. It's not for naught, baby keeps moving down, uterus is toning up and i'm going to have a wonderful blissful birth... you know sometime this month .