just wanted to say hello. i've been trying to get on here and post for a couple of days now but it seems like every time i do the baby cries.
we're so thrilled with our son, he is the light of our lives. he is doing really well and seems to be very healthy and whole. here are a couple of pics of Amiel, the first is his newborn hospital pic and then four days old
stats;
9/19/09
12:35am
7.4lbs
21inches
http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i1...IMG_0191-1.jpg
http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i1...IMG_0250-1.jpg
i know elliesmomma filled you in a bit on what happened. quickly i will give you a few more details. the birth itself wasn't so bad. i labored without drugs except for the pitocin which went all the way from 2-24 in about half hour intervals. i progressed steadily for a total of around 14 hours. when the MW told me i had already passed transition i couldn't believe it. i had not had any pain to speak of until i was about 8-9 cm. i wanted to push a little and i did, it felt so good to push, when i was pronounced complete i really gave it my all with the pushes. i think the actual pain part of it was only for two hours or so. not bad at all. i birthed mostly on the birthing stool until he was about to come out then i had to hop up on the bed where i squatted leaning back on one arm. i recall telling the MW to quit touching me a bunch of times, when our son came out his arm was up on the side of his face. i don't know if this is why i had such a bad internal tear, or it could of been the pit, or a combo or as the MW suggested maybe my perineum not being supported since i was barking out the order to not touch me there or something else? who knows ? ( opinions welcomed), (i didn't tear on the outside at all). i know my second HB MW said first time moms shouldn't squat because they are prone to tearing more. i squatted because it felt right, any other position didn't. so things were pretty good until they were stitching me up for 2+hours. of course no one would tell me how bad it was until they were done which was difficult because i knew it must be serious but i didn't know how serious. i had a third degree tear toward the back of my vagina with a buttonhole through to the rectum
no fun. later that morning when i went to get out of bed i passed out. that's when they gave me two units of blood. later we were transferred to a recovery room and around 9 pm my heart rate shot up to 190. my body was shaking with each beat of my heart. it was so scary, i was wheeled off for a spiral cat scan which they assured me would be normal since i had no other signs of an embolism. but they found one in my right lung in the bottom quadrant in the small airways. so i had to be transferred again to the PCU away from my baby, it was horrific, i sobbed and sobbed. i was so afraid i was going to die. i got two more units of blood and was hooked up to all kinds of monitors and IVs. i still get freaked out wondering if i have a blood clot circulating around inside and what that could mean. thank God they discharged me on monday as the baby was released that day and couldn't stay with me in the hospital. i am on medication but able to nurse which is another blessing, he nurses well and is gaining weight!
i have to go to the dr. once a week but our son is keeping me busy and filled with joy. we are so in love with him.
so i guess i don't have a cute little perfect birth story to share but you know what, i am glad to be alive, i may never know why these rare things happened in my case but i guess it doesn't matter. we love our baby and he was worth all of it.
we're so thrilled with our son, he is the light of our lives. he is doing really well and seems to be very healthy and whole. here are a couple of pics of Amiel, the first is his newborn hospital pic and then four days old
stats;
9/19/09
12:35am
7.4lbs
21inches
http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i1...IMG_0191-1.jpg
http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i1...IMG_0250-1.jpg
i know elliesmomma filled you in a bit on what happened. quickly i will give you a few more details. the birth itself wasn't so bad. i labored without drugs except for the pitocin which went all the way from 2-24 in about half hour intervals. i progressed steadily for a total of around 14 hours. when the MW told me i had already passed transition i couldn't believe it. i had not had any pain to speak of until i was about 8-9 cm. i wanted to push a little and i did, it felt so good to push, when i was pronounced complete i really gave it my all with the pushes. i think the actual pain part of it was only for two hours or so. not bad at all. i birthed mostly on the birthing stool until he was about to come out then i had to hop up on the bed where i squatted leaning back on one arm. i recall telling the MW to quit touching me a bunch of times, when our son came out his arm was up on the side of his face. i don't know if this is why i had such a bad internal tear, or it could of been the pit, or a combo or as the MW suggested maybe my perineum not being supported since i was barking out the order to not touch me there or something else? who knows ? ( opinions welcomed), (i didn't tear on the outside at all). i know my second HB MW said first time moms shouldn't squat because they are prone to tearing more. i squatted because it felt right, any other position didn't. so things were pretty good until they were stitching me up for 2+hours. of course no one would tell me how bad it was until they were done which was difficult because i knew it must be serious but i didn't know how serious. i had a third degree tear toward the back of my vagina with a buttonhole through to the rectum
no fun. later that morning when i went to get out of bed i passed out. that's when they gave me two units of blood. later we were transferred to a recovery room and around 9 pm my heart rate shot up to 190. my body was shaking with each beat of my heart. it was so scary, i was wheeled off for a spiral cat scan which they assured me would be normal since i had no other signs of an embolism. but they found one in my right lung in the bottom quadrant in the small airways. so i had to be transferred again to the PCU away from my baby, it was horrific, i sobbed and sobbed. i was so afraid i was going to die. i got two more units of blood and was hooked up to all kinds of monitors and IVs. i still get freaked out wondering if i have a blood clot circulating around inside and what that could mean. thank God they discharged me on monday as the baby was released that day and couldn't stay with me in the hospital. i am on medication but able to nurse which is another blessing, he nurses well and is gaining weight!i have to go to the dr. once a week but our son is keeping me busy and filled with joy. we are so in love with him.
so i guess i don't have a cute little perfect birth story to share but you know what, i am glad to be alive, i may never know why these rare things happened in my case but i guess it doesn't matter. we love our baby and he was worth all of it.
Congratulations!!!
Sorry you had such a scary experience, but i am glad that you were well taken care of and safe.
Welcome back and congratulations on your beautiful baby boy!
