I guess I am out DT test this morning at 11dpo. BFN, stark and white I am more upset than I thought I'd be
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10/17/09 at 7:15am
Today is Sweetest Day. I dont know how widespread it is though my area tends to celebrate it quite a bit.
I forgot. So did DF... but yet today I got three VERY sweet cards from him... one of them with about a paragraph written in it about how he cannot wait to be my husband and the father of our children. I cried.
Thank you, mae. I'm sorry we share that weird and confusing emotional twister. I can already feel how much I will love this little angel, yet my heart is breaking in two. I've cried myself sick tonight, and yet I can't stop looking at her picture and longing to hold her. I wish I could just be there to be a part of this.
Thanks so much for the hugs. I'm either numb, or I've finally just gone nuts...but wait it gets better...
I may have mentioned that the doctor took 11 vials of blood to test to see if there were any problems. I thought, what the heck, maybe they could find something simple wrong and fix it. After all, I have one super healthy son form a super easy pregnancy, surely I'm not so far gone right?
This office from the beginning has been a very unprofessional and still completely unfeeling, digusting excuse for a doctor.
OK, so I just called this morning to get my lab results and they "made a mistake" with the vials of blood and froze some that shouldn't have been frozen and didn't freeze some that should have been. So they scrapped all the tests. I am so mad, I think I could spit!!!!!
Let me just say it's a good thing I wasn't there in person...you ladies would have seen me on the news! I said to the nurse. "So You took 11 vials of blood for nothing?" She said "OH well, I guess you could put it like that, it wasn't really a waste since your body would probably still be registering as pregnant and the hormone levels wouldn't have been accurate, and wouldn't have told us much of anything". Obviously that makes sense, but they certainly knew that when they took the blood to begin with!!!
She said we'd talk more about it when I went in next week. Is she kidding? Why would I go in again!?
The mc is awful obviously, but I really think I'm more upset at being treated this way.
Sorry I always seem to be ranting about myself these days.