* Bitter Sushi Ladies ~ October * - Page 13

[BelovedK]

Good morning ladies. I am embarrassed that I whined I am still sore, and think made the right decision not to dance. It is so stressful to perform, now I can rest and enjoy having my step- GD.

Love to you all, and I GL to everyone in the 2WW

[starkyld]

enigo, I'm so, so sorry for your loss, and for the bad behavior you've been receiving from your care providers and your mother. I didn't see your post in the May forum or I would have offered my condolences sooner. I had really hoped that we'd both be moving along through this process together. It sounds like you're emotionally healing and taking good care of yourself--I'm proud of you (I know how hard it can be).

lisko, congratulations and good luck. I've got my fingers crossed for you.

[enigo]

Thanks Starkyld,
Here's wishing you a Happy and Healthy 9 months!

I'm fine most days, but it seems the last couple days I almost break down and cry from out of nowhere. Of course I'm always in a public place when this happens. SO I have to get it together. I'm not going to be some crazy lady crying at the gym like a freak.
I'm trying to keep hope alive and give it one more try! I have an appt with an OB on Monday to do some bloodwork. She said 2 mc in a row mean nothing (You know...to HER ) as far as having a successful preg, so I'll give it another shot.

[jessica_s]

Hmm it seems my hopes are dashed this cycle. I was actually convincing myself that I felt pregnant today. I would have totally POAS if I wasn't 9DPO. But of course, I have that little tinge of red to my CM which tells me spotting is coming which of course means AF. Le sigh.

[BelovedK]

Originally Posted by jessica_s

Hmm it seems my hopes are dashed this cycle. I was actually convincing myself that I felt pregnant today. I would have totally POAS if I wasn't 9DPO. But of course, I have that little tinge of red to my CM which tells me spotting is coming which of course means AF. Le sigh.

Do you usually spot at 9dpo? I'm sorry sweetie, this is all so hard, BUT it isn't over until she shows (I know the feeling you're having though)

[BelovedK]

I gat 9 1/2 hours of sleep last night. The granddaughter was ovewr and DH slept downstairs with her because she was scared It is fun having a 4yo around. She is so funny, and bossy and full of energy

My af was reeeaaallly light this month, that is great, I bled like a normal person, not so heavy like I usually do. She is still here, but only intermittent spotting. I wonder what this month will hold. I had BFP dreams last night. I also had anxiety dreams about dancing at the hafla and not being prepared

So, who is left in the 2ww this month? I need to know who to stalk.

[MaerynPearl]

Originally Posted by BelovedK

So, who is left in the 2ww this month? I need to know who to stalk.

I have been lacking in the taking-reliable-temps department this month... half of them I just guessed on and todays looks like I already Oed but i need to put in yet that today and yesterdays were not taken until after noon (lol no kids, so great to stay up til 2am and sleep in)

With DF finding out the exact day he gets home within the next couple of days I am getting quite nervous. I am TRYING to stay calm to not mess up my cycles... because I only have about 2 days between likely-O-date and likely-him-coming-home date so pushing back O at all means me obsessing until AF shows again.

Last night, though, I bought a WHOLE brand new outfit to welcome him home in... including black and pink lacey bra and panties ^_^ and some super sexy heels.

[Tear78]

Originally Posted by jessica_s

Hmm it seems my hopes are dashed this cycle. I was actually convincing myself that I felt pregnant today. I would have totally POAS if I wasn't 9DPO. But of course, I have that little tinge of red to my CM which tells me spotting is coming which of course means AF. Le sigh.

I'm sorry honey. I hope you're wrong. Maybe it means something else. But I won't get your hopes up: I know how much that hurts. I'll just let you know I'm sending you and

[jessica_s]

I like this one better for AF lol

Well beloved and Tear thank you for the well wishes, spotting increased to red today so in goes the Diva cup. Expecting the official start tomorrow or the next day.

Spotting on 9DPO is pretty common for me - I only usually have a 11 or 12 day LP so that's 2-3 days of spotting. Then tack on a FULL WEEK of AF and well, that's why I got a Diva cup.

I'm definitely doing my workup this month, DH said that he would schedule his SA when I did my stuff. So maybe we can knock all the basic stuff out here soon.

[MaerynPearl]

FF thinks I already Oed... lol wtf.

Darn me. I need to temp at 7am and THEN go back to sleep and not temp at 11am/noon.

I guess this month Im going to have to go on CM only.

[enigo]

Well I finally have something nice to say about a doctor.
I had an appt today really to see if they could tell if anything was progressing.
Not only did the people in the office have a personality,(I am never serious and it drives me nuts when I have to be), but the doctor was very patient and actually didn't have one foot out the door the whole time she was talking to me. She didn't tell me anything new, but at least she seemed very positive that I should try again (Sure, it's not her body!) She took at least a half hour with me and answered every question I could think of.
Annnyway, nothing else new, but at least I left without wanting to punch a wall. Except of course for the 11 miserable pregnant ladies waiting in the waiting room.

Also it occured to me today that I need to go another route. I used to work with a guy who is now a acupuncturist and chinese herbalist that I completely trust. I'm going to go to him when this mc situation has resolved itself.

Also if anyone hasn't read the Infertility Cure, you should order it. I just got it today and I felt like a light had been turned on in just the first chapter. That's as far as I got so far

[LZP]

Oh enigo! i am SO glad that you had a better experience this time, and that you didnt write off the whole medical community. You;d think that with so maby OBs around in your area, they'd all be working HARD to impress potential patients (i.e. clients) so they could keep them... at least this woman was better to you.

I know what you mean about how being serious is a chore sometimes- I'm the same way. joking mostly all the time, unless I'm the crazy crying woman in the grocery store checkout line. its awesome.

It sounds like you're feeling more positive, and that the time the doc spent with you helped to put you more at ease. hopefully as time passes, you and DH can decide if you'll continue to TTC despite the fear/bitterness/raw-ness.

oh- and I wonder if you dont want to talk to your naturalist friend now? He/she might be able to offer some advice, or even an acu treatment that could move things along for you, if you're comfortable with it. then you might not have to wait another 12 agonizing weeks.

Beloved- probably good that you cancelled your dance, at least to let yourself heal some more, and get to spend time with Dh and GD! how cute little 4 yos can be!

Jessica- sorry you're feeling out- i didnt stalk your chart to see what if anything happened since your last post. perhaps your BW will show something regarding the somewhat early spotting?

Tear- hope that weeeknd was as relaxing as you thought! good job "planning" ahead! I bet the observation time is a little nerve wracking. My aunt teaches 1st grade (has been for like 20 years) and LOVES being observed... weird.

AFM, walked around NYC for 6 rain-drenched hours on Saturday. other than being soaked, it was really fun! went to the completely non-PC, non eco friendly canal street and purchased a few items... not at all MDC-esque, but so so fun. went to a really nice dinner, and then (finally!) went back to stay at friends' house. today, still no clue where i am in my cycle(DPO related), but I'm on CD 37 I think? i have been putting in symptoms but usually a day after the fact.
still trying not to get my hopes up, but the tender bbs are making me so confused/partially hopeful. there, I said it. hopeful. again. why does the human brain do this to us? can't I just learn?! but the sore bbs- i just dont know- that is a new thing as of 2 cycles ago.

[MaerynPearl]

Just got my first sign of impending ovulation (despite that FF insists I am 3dpo)

ewcm that stretched about 6 inches or so. Not marking it down though as it was post-bm and I have made a vow due to my cm patterns not to mark post-bm cm and ONLY the stuff I get without a bm.

[Lauren31]

Originally Posted by MaerynPearl

Not marking it down though as it was post-bm and I have made a vow due to my cm patterns not to mark post-bm cm and ONLY the stuff I get without a bm.

yeah but all my best CM was post BM. OMG this is a horrible visual but true...

[MaerynPearl]

Originally Posted by Lauren31

yeah but all my best CM was post BM. OMG this is a horrible visual but true...

lol... my longest stretching cm is post bm too... but it can actually come at any time of my cycle as long as it is post bm so I dont count it. Just... for me I know it is inaccurate.

[MaerynPearl]

DF just called... his coming-home-date is set in stone now. Granted the TIME can change, but that day is when he will be here.

He will be able to get his phone turned back on the day before so as soon as he is on U.S. soil he can call me... before returning his gun, etc. and being driven to the base.

I am so nervous and excited. I still do not know how/when I am getting down there. If his parents drive, I will be riding with them... if they fly I will be flying too...

I havent Oed yet, (despite what FF says, I KNOW that was not an O shift) and with my nerves going I am scared I wont O until he is home (do not want.)

My son is home sick from school (sore throat and cough, no fever) and I have a sore throat starting up now too. So add sick onto nerves/excitement.

[lisko15]

Hi to my fellow Sushi Ladies...

Jessica - Sorry AF showed... I hope that beginning your workup is helpful! It does feel good to do something proactive, at least it did for me.

LZP - Can I be hopeful for you?

enigo - I'm glad the doctor listened and you felt like you had a good quality appointment.

Tear - I hope your reunion with DH is "productive".

Mae - Glad to hear DF has a definite date to arrive home!

Hi to everybody else...

AFM - Still nervous... still just counting down the days and weeks until I get somewhere "safer" in the 1st trimester. I had a whole lot of cramping yesterday afternoon/evening and it really freaked me out. I just want to relax, that's all.

I'm ready to give over the thread though... anyone up for it? Feel free to switch it up come November, it wouldn't be quite right for me to be threadmistress anymore.

I'm always lurking... and waiting/hoping for my fellow BSL ladies to follow me over...

[MaerynPearl]

Ovulation pain there. No doubt. Exciting! Maybe O will be here in 2 days like normal!

[enigo]

Did I mention even the doctor was pregnant at that office?
I also love the "Walk of shame" when I have to walk past all the pregnant mamas in the waiting room. I've had to do it enough lately. You know they are all like..."What is that skinny chick doing at a pregnant lady's doctor?"

[MaerynPearl]

Originally Posted by enigo

Did I mention even the doctor was pregnant at that office?
I also love the "Walk of shame" when I have to walk past all the pregnant mamas in the waiting room. I've had to do it enough lately. You know they are all like..."What is that skinny chick doing at a pregnant lady's doctor?"

They were there in their first trimester. They dont think that. THey just assume its your first visit.