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post #281 of 351
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Originally Posted by enigo View Post
...the baby did finally pass this evening. It has actually made me feel better. I can get on with my life now. The waiting was hell, it's been more than 3 wks since I found out I was going to lose him.
Enigo,
I've been watching to see how this chapter turns out for you. I'm so glad that you were able to miscarry on your own. I think the waiting is so awful. I felt better when it was finally over too.

My RE said no wait is necessary if you pass it on your own. I had to wait for an IUI another month due to my D&C. Then MIL died that day, and then the next month I have a cyst pumping out estrogen. I can't win it seems. But if I can't win.. I'd be glad if you can!
post #282 of 351
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Originally Posted by Tear78 View Post
eep, I got preseed this month! c'mon let that be the thing I needed! c'mon!!! I just got my positive OPK. What am I doing here? Better get busy!

ps - LZP, you're being soooo good, and soooo quiet about your tww. I'm thinking about you and !!!! I would pee my pants and scream if you got a bfp. do it!
Oh, I'm not being good. I went full out nuts. I took a test about a week ago, but didnt know where i was in the cycle. BFN, of course. then, one on our anniversary, just because, well, i thought, "wouldnt it just be amazing if we really were able to have a baby, and we found out on our anniversary?" well, it was a BFN too. and then one the next day, just for good measure. also a BFN. yet, i stared at each of them until i SWORE i saw something. at least i didnt leave them on the counter and look at them every 5 seconds... (but I did go into the trash and pick each one out separately and stare again a few times. can't lie.)

anyway, another few bucks in the trash, because AF showed today. i guess that last patch of EW was when I O'd. I guess at least i know what it's like without temping, and i think i can handle not temping in the future.

Tear- I really really really hope for you that THIS is the one! I hope the pre-seed works!! that would be awesome. I will hold out hope for you- until that BFP comes! I can't stay away!

seems we've all been quiet here.

enigo- I hope that even in your pain of the finality of it, you can start to heal emotionally and physically. I've been thinking of you often. I hope you're all taking care of each other. Your DS is blessed to have such a strong, loving mommy.

Lisko- I hope you're hangin' in there, and doing GREAT! I cant take over maintenance of the BSL thread, bc well.... i have been trying to just check in on my girls and then go. Thanks for being such a fantastic threadkeeper for us, and for being so SO SO optimistic and sweet.

YYYM- I have NO idea what to make of that chart! i think this was partially why i had to stop temping- too many things to analyze daily. it's amazing what the absence of that blue zig-zag line can do for peace of mind!

Nanette- are you just chillin in the FP? I might have to go to The One and stalk your chart, even though i hate going there lately. you didnt temp last month- are you going to continue that trend too?

Kel32- UGh. seems like you just can't catch a break lady! these are some tough times, when we feel stalled and so out of control. i hope this next cycle is just what you need to get that BFP!

Jess- seems like youre needing alittle time on your side. If AF shows tomorrow, then CD3 is on Monday. that would be good. my RE has hours on sat and sunday morning just for ladies like us who's bodies like to play evil tricks... could you call today and find out? it would be a pain on a Saturday, but still.... maybe worth a call?
Carlyle- i can never find the smilie I want... never. i usually go begrudgingly with an alternate. and then find the one I want. Grr.

Court, HEEEEYYYY!!! You are the definition of zen mama!! Did I already tell you that the convo you told us about with your DH made me a little misty last week? You two are such good mama and papa bears.

Kiya- how is Uraguay?! where are these pics? do i have to go back and click on that flikr stream?! i hope you're bring back a digi BFP souvenir!!!

Who did I forget? probably a few!
post #283 of 351
Thanks you guys!
I'm so afraid to try again. Everything keeps coming back normal for me, but yet 2 mc in a row is NOT normal. I went hiking and running around with my son today. I probably should have taken it a little easier, but I'm a spaz, so I can't. (Right now I can hear him...he has dumped a bucket of rocks in the living room. I so don't want to go in there.)

I feel soooo relieved and much healthier. Like a weight has been lifted.
I may even try when I O next, but we'll see. I better start charting again. I got pregnant first time I charted last time. Couldn't do it to save my life before that.


By the way, it wasn't rocks he dumped...it was rocks AND dirt...on the couch. Whatever...
post #284 of 351
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Originally Posted by enigo View Post
Everything keeps coming back normal for me, but yet 2 mc in a row is NOT normal.
Unfortunately, it can be.
post #285 of 351
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Originally Posted by enigo View Post
Thanks you guys!
I'm so afraid to try again. Everything keeps coming back normal for me, but yet 2 mc in a row is NOT normal. I went hiking and running around with my son today. I probably should have taken it a little easier, but I'm a spaz, so I can't. (Right now I can hear him...he has dumped a bucket of rocks in the living room. I so don't want to go in there.)

I feel soooo relieved and much healthier. Like a weight has been lifted.
I may even try when I O next, but we'll see. I better start charting again. I got pregnant first time I charted last time. Couldn't do it to save my life before that.
I recommend checking out the Making Babies book. They have some specific tests and recommendations for recurring miscarriages. I have the book at home, so I don't know what they are right now, but I can look it up when I get home.
post #286 of 351
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Originally Posted by kel32brown View Post
Oh my goodness, I had to stay in the room and drink water and compose myself when I found out our baby didn't have a heartbeat.. and there was a roomful of women at the RE's office. I so didn't want to spoil their innocence and experience.
I didn't want to either....the first time. The second time I wanted to kick each and every one of them in the shins.
post #287 of 351
Sorry I've not updated!

So AF came after 5 days of spotting. WTF?!
Anyway so I called and got in this morning for my CD2 testing. They'll do it on 2,3 or 4. Everything looked good except they thought my thyroid level was elevated. So I'm getting sent for a full panel for that.
I had my thyroid check in March and it was normal, but I wouldn't be surprised if it was high since that runs in my immediate family.
Scheduled my HSG which I'm a little bit nervous about, I really don't want it to be super painful.

My RE is open on the weekends, I was just really bad timing for my social calendar to go on the weekend They have an office that's pretty much open 24/7 but it's about 45 minutes away.
post #288 of 351
Third day of O pains... sometimes right side sometimes left

this isnt normal for me


the stress the excitement is putting on me is, I am certain, messing with my ovulation.
post #289 of 351
Even though you have decided to wait, your eggs are bursting at the seams trying to hold out until DF gets home
post #290 of 351
yeah, darnit

why does my body not do what i want it to WHEN I want it to?

This is the worst possible time for me to get pregnant. Any time in the past would be fine but I REALLY want to wait until we are married now that that is 9 months away!
post #291 of 351
The origial OB I went to mailed me my records today(With a bill for $16 for having to print them...ahem. I told you they were jerks!)

For some reason I got a chuckle out of the following:
Along with page after page saying everything was fine were 4 pages of tests for STDs. I tested neg for all of them. I wasn't worried, but out of 4 pages of diseases, you would think I would have something! I didn't even know there were that many sexually transmitted diseases! There were at least 20.
I mean hell, I didn't get married until I was 30 and it wasn't like I was saving myself...
post #292 of 351
Same here... lol. I always had the full range of tests run yearly even when I started my relationship with df (and unlike XH I do not question his faithfulness and HE gets a full range of tests yearly due to his job) because it was covered by my insurance.

Is it odd that it always puts a smile on my face to hear Im clean? LOL I mean, I havent been THAT sexually active... but it does make you feel good to know you dont have some hidden disease...
post #293 of 351
LZP: GGAAAAAAAHHHHH! I was totally holding out hope for you. I'm sorry.

Enigo: I'm glad to hear that you're feeling so much better and that you were able to miscarry on your own. I would have had such a hard time waiting 3 weeks (I didn't find out until I started to bleed)...you're amazing.
post #294 of 351
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Originally Posted by LZP View Post
then, one on our anniversary, just because, well, i thought, "wouldnt it just be amazing if we really were able to have a baby, and we found out on our anniversary?"
I totally did something just like that on our anniversary back in July--wanted to test cause how cool to tell dh while out for dinner at a fancy restaurant--but then didn't get a test in time, so just told him I was excited...then didn't drink all during dinner, then got my period that night. *sigh*
post #295 of 351
Crazy theory but...

I bought two pomegranates at the store today. I have never in my life bought one before... but I bought two because... I dont know I felt like i needed to? (and I wasnt hunger shopping, short of apples which my son reminded me he needs to help him make his tooth more loose, its the only thing i got not on my list)

Then randomly (because I have NEVER had a pomegranate before so not so randomly) I was researching them on Google to figure out how to eat them

and ran into site after site talking about how it symbolizes fertility.





Stupid body.

NO.

I can NOT get pregnant this week. Okay? Please....
post #296 of 351
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Originally Posted by MaerynPearl View Post
Crazy theory but...

I bought two pomegranates at the store today. I have never in my life bought one before... but I bought two because... I dont know I felt like i needed to? (and I wasnt hunger shopping, short of apples which my son reminded me he needs to help him make his tooth more loose, its the only thing i got not on my list)

Then randomly (because I have NEVER had a pomegranate before so not so randomly) I was researching them on Google to figure out how to eat them

and ran into site after site talking about how it symbolizes fertility.
Okay, that is really weird about pomegranates and fertility. I've had my "best" cycle yet this month, and I've eaten a bunch of pomegranates too (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/295187). Went from 12/13 day LP in the last 2 cycles to 15 this cycle. Wow. I wonder if it's related? I'll have to get some at the farmers market tomorrow...(although I've been spotting all day today, so probably it will be too late).
post #297 of 351
well hey anything that makes the LP longer (but not too long!) is good right?

and yeah no doubt your LP is longer and not that it is a questionable O date (strong feeling my O date will be VERY questionable this cycle until AF shows)
post #298 of 351
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Originally Posted by Carlyle View Post
Okay, that is really weird about pomegranates and fertility. I've had my "best" cycle yet this month, and I've eaten a bunch of pomegranates too (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/295187). Went from 12/13 day LP in the last 2 cycles to 15 this cycle. Wow. I wonder if it's related? I'll have to get some at the farmers market tomorrow...(although I've been spotting all day today, so probably it will be too late).
go, pomegranates, go!!! C'mon, BFP, c'mooooon! Go away spotting! Stay away AF! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh, wake up Carlyle!!!!

LZP I'm so sorry honey. I wanted you to lead the way to our DDC.
post #299 of 351
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Originally Posted by Carlyle View Post

Enigo: I'm glad to hear that you're feeling so much better and that you were able to miscarry on your own. I would have had such a hard time waiting 3 weeks (I didn't find out until I started to bleed)...you're amazing.
My first mc was like that, it was more stressful in a way because I was totally blindsided. This last one was obviously stressful with the waiting, but at least I only told a couple people so I barely had to think about it. With the first, I had to "untell" everyone we knew...ugggg.
Since I was using herbs to try to move things along, I think it helped me feel as if I were actually doing something about it. I wanted to avoid a D&C for fear it would make worse off than I already was. Now I have to decide if I want to try the next time I O. Funny I was all worried about getting pregnant so soon last time, then it took me 5 months.

Same with the time of year. With the first mc, I had been trying to time it for a fall baby because of the heat here, by the time I got pregnant I was smack dab in the middle of the following summer. I won't try to time anything anymore, just gimme a healthy baby...please
post #300 of 351
happy halloween! BOO! halloween party today ladies. anyone dressing up? i might wear indian clothes OR this renaissance-y princess dress i have, and i always choose one or the other EVERY YEAR because i am so boring.

pomegranates huh? *writes this down*

i feel so crappy today. horribly nauseous, super sore nipples, intense fatigue... WHY are these the new normal for me before my period now?? it happened the 2 months we were TTA so i know it isn't just wishful thinking - even when i know i can't be pregnant it still happens. god! stupid hormones! i'm 99.9999999% sure i'm out; just look at these steadily dropping temps. oh well, at least if we decide to go to a party i can drink without any worries! i wish i hadn't been so hopeful. sigh!

oh well... i said this wouldn't be the most convenient cycle for a BFP... if i had been pregnant, i'd be due 4 days before a longtime friend's out-of-state wedding that i want to attend and 3 weeks before a close friend's out-of-state wedding that me, DH, and DD are going to be in.
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