Like Rachel Maddow, I need someone to "Talk Me Down."
I'm 42 and a 5-year breast cancer survivor. We figured I was unlikely to be able to get pregnant due to chemo and my age, so we pursued adoption and brought home our wonderful DD in 2006.
Then, in 2007, we decided to TTC before pursuing another adoption, as the agency we'd worked with for DD was having some issues we weren't comfortable with. Whammo, thanks to the Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor, I got pregnant the first month of trying (at 40) and gave birth to DS less than 2 months before turning 41. Easy pregnancy, had to have a C-section due to stubborn breech and a loop of low cord that made vaginal breech too risky, but other than that I had the least complicated pregnancy ever--much easier than my younger friends.
Well, despite my ancientness, we decided to try for one more. And even though I'm 42 and my cycles are a bit wonky since I'm still BFing DS (on my non-irradiated breast), this time I got pregnant after 2 cycles of trying.
So now I'm exactly 4 weeks LMP. And I'm paranoid. After all, I am an OLD mama. Much younger women than I miscarry at a relatively high rate. I keep thinking that it's just been too easy, that this will turn out to be a chemical pregnancy or there will be awful, unmanageable chromosomal abnormalities. I'm literally peeing on every stick I can find and analyzing the lines--hey, that line doesn't look as dark as the one from yesterday! Maybe I'm miscarrying!
Mostly, I'm excited, really. But some of the time I'm just driving myself nuts with what-ifs. Gotta find a way to calm those fears! Any advice?
I'm 42 and a 5-year breast cancer survivor. We figured I was unlikely to be able to get pregnant due to chemo and my age, so we pursued adoption and brought home our wonderful DD in 2006.
Then, in 2007, we decided to TTC before pursuing another adoption, as the agency we'd worked with for DD was having some issues we weren't comfortable with. Whammo, thanks to the Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor, I got pregnant the first month of trying (at 40) and gave birth to DS less than 2 months before turning 41. Easy pregnancy, had to have a C-section due to stubborn breech and a loop of low cord that made vaginal breech too risky, but other than that I had the least complicated pregnancy ever--much easier than my younger friends.
Well, despite my ancientness, we decided to try for one more. And even though I'm 42 and my cycles are a bit wonky since I'm still BFing DS (on my non-irradiated breast), this time I got pregnant after 2 cycles of trying.
So now I'm exactly 4 weeks LMP. And I'm paranoid. After all, I am an OLD mama. Much younger women than I miscarry at a relatively high rate. I keep thinking that it's just been too easy, that this will turn out to be a chemical pregnancy or there will be awful, unmanageable chromosomal abnormalities. I'm literally peeing on every stick I can find and analyzing the lines--hey, that line doesn't look as dark as the one from yesterday! Maybe I'm miscarrying!
Mostly, I'm excited, really. But some of the time I'm just driving myself nuts with what-ifs. Gotta find a way to calm those fears! Any advice?
