Hello, I'm due in March and planning my first homebirth.
I have three children ages 9, 7 and 2. My first was a hospital vag birth, 2nd a csection and 3rd an attempted vbac that ended in csection due to OBs impatience.
When we were TTC I found a great midwifery group through my local ICAN chapter. My DH and I both love them and were very excited and confident to homebirth when I became pregnant(I'm 16wks now).
So over the past few weeks I've had a lot of doubts and fears slowly creep in. I'm not scared of the labor or pain, I guess I just fear something happening at the very end to the baby. Like during the final delivery part. My DH is very confident and reassures me all the time and that helps though.
I guess my main question is if it's normal to have doubts and fears when planning a homebirth? I read all these stories from Women who've had a homebirth or are planning one and they all seem so confident and have no worries. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me to worry like I'm making a bad choice.
I've only read one story where a woman felt like I do and she went on the have a great home birth and all her fears melted away when she was in labor. That one story did help a lot but I'm wondering how other women feel and if what I feel is normal.
I have three children ages 9, 7 and 2. My first was a hospital vag birth, 2nd a csection and 3rd an attempted vbac that ended in csection due to OBs impatience.
When we were TTC I found a great midwifery group through my local ICAN chapter. My DH and I both love them and were very excited and confident to homebirth when I became pregnant(I'm 16wks now).
So over the past few weeks I've had a lot of doubts and fears slowly creep in. I'm not scared of the labor or pain, I guess I just fear something happening at the very end to the baby. Like during the final delivery part. My DH is very confident and reassures me all the time and that helps though.
I guess my main question is if it's normal to have doubts and fears when planning a homebirth? I read all these stories from Women who've had a homebirth or are planning one and they all seem so confident and have no worries. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me to worry like I'm making a bad choice.
I've only read one story where a woman felt like I do and she went on the have a great home birth and all her fears melted away when she was in labor. That one story did help a lot but I'm wondering how other women feel and if what I feel is normal.
But you have done a good job already of informing yourself of risks and now you can begin the good work of mitigating those risks and your fears with more knowledge!
Thirdly, give yourself permission to trust your body that it can and will deliver this baby naturally at home. Go on, give it a try. Why on earth do you need a doctor to tell you how to do this? you've already had a successful vaginal birth, so of course you can have another. Ignore those c-sections; they were unfortunate and in the past. You can and will be successful. Eat well, take care of yourself, and arm your brain with positive, helpful knowledge. And most importantly, trust your body. It's a smart body to have produced three children already, right? And it can do a good job on this one, too 
to you and the OP. I had a fearless, wonderful hb w/ DD1 and went on to have a less than ideal, completely nat'l hospital stillbirth. DD3 was absolutley my best birth. She was born at home, accidentally unattended. 
Yes, I had some trepidation after our second birth, but I was still confident and obviously, quite capable. 
