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Originally Posted by sept04mama 
I feel like I've been a part of this board so I really wanted to post my announcement like everyone else, I'm sorry if it's hard for some of you to read. 
I had a wonderful labor and quick delivery at home in the water and gave birth to my 10 lb. 2 oz. 22" baby boy, Nolan Ray on Friday at 3am. It was joyful and amazing to feel him come out of me. I pushed for 5 minutes.
When he didn't respond, he was taken right from me and the midwife worked to revive him. We called 911 quickly. He was taken to a hospital then life flighted to Primary Children's Hospital in SLC. It was found that he had a condition called a diaphragmatic hernia that could not be repaired. He had been deprived of oxygen so long he would not survive surgery. We made the decision to stop life-saving treatments and held him in our arms as he died about 19 hrs. after his birth. I don't wish anyone to have to ever make a decision like that. We are trying to arrange burial services and all that goes with it. Today my milk came in and I am in a lot of pain trying to recover and help my little ones grieve for their brother.
If you are inclined to pray, please do so for me and for my family who is devastated by the loss. Thank you for letting me be a part of this board, I've felt the love and support of all of you throughout my pregnancy, even if I didn't post often.
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Oh my. I am so sorry. I had a son last year at a birth center, 10lbs, 5 oz and he was deprived oxygen too long and we had to take him off life support (at 4 days old). I hold you in my heart and pray for your comfort as I too understand the feeling of never wanting anyone to ever have to make a decision like that or go through grief from it. Again, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and will keep you and your family in my prayers as you grieve your little boy Nolan.
There are some great loss boards out there if you are in need of a safe place to vent and ask for prayer. Hannah's Prayer is one of them.