So it's been a week, I'm not sure if which drugs matter, but she is now slowly going up on Lamictal, taking Clonopin and Ambien at night, and a lower dose of Seroquel (150mg).
It's, good, bad, and ugly, sometimes she's fine, sometimes she's not, it's been up and down, while the group sessions seem to help pass the time, she doesn't seem to be getting much from them, it seems to be that she knows all the "things you should be doing" in fact even, according to her, she rattles off lists of the things you should be doing and how you should be doing it, however, getting her to DO those things, that seems to be where the key is.
Some things are better, the shaky feelings that were waking her in the morning seem to have gone, the drowsy, but feeling agitated and needing to move, seems to have gone, so positives there. However, she's still utterly worried about the medications, worried about what the diagnosis is (I gather this is something that apparently doctors HAVE to give a diagnosis to get insurance to pay for things, however, I keep telling her, doesn't matter WHAT the diagnosis is, they all think she should be taking the same medication) . It hasn't been THAT helped by one of the Hospital Dr's saying that she should stop taking the Klonopin because she might get addicted to it, yeah, thanks for that, she's finally getting some sleep, she's already paranoid about getting addicted and continues to be "well, yeah, I'm getting a little sleep now, but it's all because of drugs, it's not REAL sleep"
Anyway, we'll see what tomorrow brings, while I don't feel like she's "actively" suicidal, I feel like if a situation presented itself, at a point where she was feeling really down, then things might go badly. But, I guess if the Dr's feel she's safe enough to come home, well, I guess that's what's going to happen.
It's, good, bad, and ugly, sometimes she's fine, sometimes she's not, it's been up and down, while the group sessions seem to help pass the time, she doesn't seem to be getting much from them, it seems to be that she knows all the "things you should be doing" in fact even, according to her, she rattles off lists of the things you should be doing and how you should be doing it, however, getting her to DO those things, that seems to be where the key is.
Some things are better, the shaky feelings that were waking her in the morning seem to have gone, the drowsy, but feeling agitated and needing to move, seems to have gone, so positives there. However, she's still utterly worried about the medications, worried about what the diagnosis is (I gather this is something that apparently doctors HAVE to give a diagnosis to get insurance to pay for things, however, I keep telling her, doesn't matter WHAT the diagnosis is, they all think she should be taking the same medication) . It hasn't been THAT helped by one of the Hospital Dr's saying that she should stop taking the Klonopin because she might get addicted to it, yeah, thanks for that, she's finally getting some sleep, she's already paranoid about getting addicted and continues to be "well, yeah, I'm getting a little sleep now, but it's all because of drugs, it's not REAL sleep"
Anyway, we'll see what tomorrow brings, while I don't feel like she's "actively" suicidal, I feel like if a situation presented itself, at a point where she was feeling really down, then things might go badly. But, I guess if the Dr's feel she's safe enough to come home, well, I guess that's what's going to happen.
