Anyone else emotionally unavailable to the ones they love?

[BakerALM]

Since I can remember I have been dealing with depression & anxiety but not really until I became married did I really realize I had this problem and STUPIDLY I (and my husband) thought I (we) could handle it on my (our) own! Now my husband wants a divorce due to my inability to make and keep an emotional connection to him, lack of physical intimacy, an inability to truly listen to his problems and give him a REAL hug. He is has been truly emotionally hurt by me. I have finally started therapy, something that I should have done YEARS and YEARS ago but I was wondering if anyone else struggles with these same feeling and thoughts?
Could really use the support!
Andrea

[proudmamanow]

I really feel like I can relate to this Andrea, though it's a more recent problem for me (the depression is only 1-1.5 years in), but one symptom of it for me is that I do feel less & less emotionally available to my partner & kids.

(((hugs)))) to you and I hope that you can find help. I'm still looking for the right therapist.

[BakerALM]

Originally Posted by proudmamanow

I really feel like I can relate to this Andrea, though it's a more recent problem for me (the depression is only 1-1.5 years in), but one symptom of it for me is that I do feel less & less emotionally available to my partner & kids.

(((hugs)))) to you and I hope that you can find help. I'm still looking for the right therapist.

THanks for posting! I would find a therapist that you can relate to and but be honest with your self, allow your self to find the root of your depression so you can heal from with in.

I have just started therapy a few weeks ago and amazingly I already feel different, more hopeful, loving, optimistic and empowered. I also have been starting to build my support group of friends that know what I am going though so they can help me to stay on course, ask me how I am doing and expect an honest answer since my way of hiding from life was to push everyone away leaving no one to ask "hows it going". I need to stop hiding from life in so many ways and I know telling my friends and family what is going through my head not allow me to lie to anyone anymore by saying everything is "fine" since they will know better.