I'm so tired of working.

[dsaucone]

I hate working. I hate it. I hate that it takes my patience away and when I come home I have none left for my kids or DH. I hate that I am main breadwinner in home (even if it's cheap white bread from the gas station). I hate that we rely on me to pay the mortgage and bills. I hate not being able to be a good housekeeper, I hate not being able to cook a 903 course meal for dinner, I hate the time work takes. I hate having to crash on the couch and miss another 2 hours because I'm exhausted. I hate that when I wake up from those 2 hours of 1/2 napping (somebody needs nursing, somebody wants this/that) DH needs to leave for work/I'm cranky.

I know that the solution is to readjust my expectations of housework meals, which I don't want to, but even if did that I still can't re-adjust my mommy expectations and right now I can't meet even basics in that department.

I'm just venting and needed somewhere to throw all this out in the open. DH and I have talked and that's just like running 400 miles around a track because there's really nothing new to say.

[busymama77]

Couldn't pass up this thread and not give you one of these I think a lot of us have days like this and more than one of these days if we're all really human!
I've been not really hating work, per se, these days, but knowing that I could do so much more at home with my DS and now that we have another one on the way, the idea of working, taking care of two little ones, with an H that travels on occassion, nursing and pumping, etc.,etc is becoming a bit overwhelming. I'm not the breadwinner, but we do need my income for the new mortgage (bigger house that we just bought), clothes for the family and daycare tuition.

Hang in there, mama. I'm sure there are better and brighter days around your corner and mine!

[Ceinwen]

Originally Posted by dsaucone

I hate working. I hate it. I hate that it takes my patience away and when I come home I have none left for my kids or DH. I hate that I am main breadwinner in home (even if it's cheap white bread from the gas station). I hate that we rely on me to pay the mortgage and bills. I hate not being able to be a good housekeeper, I hate not being able to cook a 903 course meal for dinner, I hate the time work takes. I hate having to crash on the couch and miss another 2 hours because I'm exhausted. I hate that when I wake up from those 2 hours of 1/2 napping (somebody needs nursing, somebody wants this/that) DH needs to leave for work/I'm cranky.

I know that the solution is to readjust my expectations of housework meals, which I don't want to, but even if did that I still can't re-adjust my mommy expectations and right now I can't meet even basics in that department.

I'm just venting and needed somewhere to throw all this out in the open. DH and I have talked and that's just like running 400 miles around a track because there's really nothing new to say.

This is my life in a nutshell - plus I'm a single mother. Urgh. I'm not sure if it means I need to find new work, take better drugs (legal ones) or what. The therapy isn't helping and I am burning the candle at both ends and coming up with nada...

[yarngoddess]

Much love to you momma's. My heart goes out to you

[Gentle~Mommy :)]

Do you work weekends? I was thinking maybe you could do a bunch of cooking on Saturday and freeze meals for the whole week? then you would have sunday free and meal time would be easier during the week.

Also, does your DH help with the cooking/housework/kids? Maybe you need to get organized with a chart of chores and divide up responsibilities?

[dsaucone]

Originally Posted by Gentle~Mommy :)

Do you work weekends? I was thinking maybe you could do a bunch of cooking on Saturday and freeze meals for the whole week? then you would have sunday free and meal time would be easier during the week.

Also, does your DH help with the cooking/housework/kids? Maybe you need to get organized with a chart of chores and divide up responsibilities?

I work every other weekend. Dh helps, but not the way I need him to. And do you know how many talks we've had? It's useless.

[Gentle~Mommy :)]

Maybe you need to go on strike (a little)

When you work the weekend shifts do you get some time odd during the week?

[ShwarmaQueen]

Don't have anything to add except that I'm right there with you momma.

[BugMacGee]

I love my job, but I often feel this way.

Unfortunately, I'm a single mom. So I feel this way about my whole lif. Some days I hate having to do everything!

It was this way even when i was married. I don't know any other life.

I really try to stay positive and focussed. I'm so happy I have a job and can support my kids! But i'm tired!

[anjelika]

I am SO here with you!

I am so envious of the 80 bajillon SAHMs in my town. I wish I could knock down my hours to PT, but then, no health insurance.

Sucks.

[janey99]

I'm with you too!

Let's start a club . . .

Jane

[Altair]

I'm there too. I'm a teacher and my jobs is SO draining and my heart isn't in it anymore-- my heart is home with my 6 month old baby who needs me. Just like you, Dad watches during the day then I come home and he hands him off and he goes to work. And I'm left to do the dishes, laundry, clean up after Dad getting ready for work, nurse, figure out pumped milk situation, try to make something for dinner, make baby food, etc. And all I want to do is have some energy and hug and play with my baby.

[Elecampane]

most days I'm right there with you. It's just not possible to do it all.

[Ceinwen]

Originally Posted by Altair

I'm there too. I'm a teacher and my jobs is SO draining and my heart isn't in it anymore-- my heart is home with my 6 month old baby who needs me. Just like you, Dad watches during the day then I come home and he hands him off and he goes to work. And I'm left to do the dishes, laundry, clean up after Dad getting ready for work, nurse, figure out pumped milk situation, try to make something for dinner, make baby food, etc. And all I want to do is have some energy and hug and play with my baby.

Bolding mine. That's my biggest issue - I have no energy or time to enjoy my kids, let alone do any other pursuits that I enjoy. I love hiking, knitting and reading... Most nights I literally fall asleep with my toddler, wake up at ten, realize I need to do the dishes and pack lunches... it's insane.

[dsaucone]

I bought a few more casserole pans. Hoping to make some lasagna, bakes, and casseroles this weekend.