I know this isn't the right place, but I thought you all might have come across info in your research. TTC #2 for 2 years after a traumatic birth. I have done a lot of therapy and finally feel ok about the birth. Now to move onto healing infertiltiy. It's month 24 and although there are many signs of pregnancy, every test is negative. I'm too destroyed to continue this.
How do I move on in a healthy direction? I'm resentful and coming close to bitter. I hate baby showers and can't even talk to pregnant women. I dread my sisters telling me of their pregnancies. I'm very thankful for the blessing of a lovely child, but it doesn't seem to fill the empty place where another baby could be.
How do I move on in a healthy direction? I'm resentful and coming close to bitter. I hate baby showers and can't even talk to pregnant women. I dread my sisters telling me of their pregnancies. I'm very thankful for the blessing of a lovely child, but it doesn't seem to fill the empty place where another baby could be.
and support. It just all doesn't seem fair. I keep plugging along but every month seems to end in despair. I just try to appreciate the wonderful parts of my life and remember what it was like when there wasn't a void. My best friend reminded me last night of a time when I had was feeling unbelievably low after breaking up with my 5 1/2 year boyfriend. My future had seemed to collapse. I look back now and see how much better my life is now on the other side of that black hole. I can only hope that something similar will happen here, and that I just can't see it because I'm in the hole. I hope your future is brighter than your past and that you will look back on this dark time as a distant memory. 
