Like ladyjools, I was part of this DDC and check in here from time to time to see how all of you are and was devastated to read about your loss, momma. It is so heartbreaking to lose your very wanted baby. Please take care of yourself, and I do rely on the pregnancy loss and TTC after loss forums. I don't post much, but I read them nearly every day. When you feel up to it, please look in those forums, you might find comfort and strength there.