So...some nice progress and stuff

[BroodyWoodsgal]

36w2d today....

Been having lots of cramping (period type) and the baby is soooooo low down...when I pee and wipe if I press up a bit while doing so, I can feel his head bulging down...he is *so* low. My cervix is nice and soft and dilated a bit...I'm losing some mucus plug in stringy bits, no really big chunks or anything, but nice to know my body is gearing up.

Last night was my anniversary with DH and we went out to eat with DD...it was really fun, but I started having ctx and was like MAN I gotta get home...I was very uncomfortable...I had three or four which were actual, real, painful rushes...so I was happy about that.

I've been trying to keep my "zen status" for the tail end of this pregnancy and I'm finding that being able to see and feel my body making progress and gearing up for labor is really helping me to stay nice and calm in my "waiting".

So...anyhow...that's my update. Still not sure what's what with this MW I've been seeing since about 30w....I really want to be able to get stitched up at home if need be...but I worry about her feeling used. I think she is pretty much hip to my game at this point and realizes that I don't really want her around for my birth...it's making me feel a bit guilty...but I just really really want my UC, I REALLY don't want anyone, not even DH, hangin' over my shoulder talking to me, etc while I give birth...it was so nice, my last birth, to be able to just be on my own and not have the noise and distraction of other people around. SO, we'll see....for the moment I'm full steam ahead with my UC plans...after all, what's the worst that could happen re:the MW situation? Is she gonna take away my birthday if I "oopsie" and she calls bullcrap? Nope.

The problem is, I really like her and think she rocks...I don't want to hurt her feelings!

[BanditaMamacita]

No advice about the mw, but I was thinking of you because you had posted about how insanely low your baby was a few weeks ago, which is exactly how i'm feeling now, and I was wondering how you're doing. Sounds like this baby's gonna be an early bird Good luck to you!

[BroodyWoodsgal]

Originally Posted by BanditaMamacita

No advice about the mw, but I was thinking of you because you had posted about how insanely low your baby was a few weeks ago, which is exactly how i'm feeling now, and I was wondering how you're doing. Sounds like this baby's gonna be an early bird Good luck to you!

Isn't it nice to have a full time occupant in your vagina! It is absolutely INSANE how low this kid has been hangin' out...when I went and saw that midwife she did an internal because I hadn't had any other "prenatal care" (though I consider my UP to that point to have been satisfactory prenatal care) and as a point of reference...and her eyes were so wide and she was basically like..."well, don't push!" She couldn't believe it...he is hanging out of me...almost literally!

Yeah...I'm starting to really sort of wonder about all this cramping I'm having...with Avery I didn't have cramping until I was in early labor...I only have Avery's birth to compare to...so I don't know how normal it is to have this amount of cramping weeks before I would expect to give birth....I kind of thought this was more of a "days before birth" type of feeling! It's really crazy...maybe he will come early, who knows...whenever he's ready, I'm all set at this point...boobies are ready, dada is ready, I need to get some freezer meals cooking and frozen...but I'm ready for him to come now, which is an awesome feeling..I just feel really ready to greet this person, I'd been having some hang ups about a second baby, my poor DD having to share, having a boy and wrapping my head around that....but I feel like I've released a lot in the last few weeks and I now feel a sort of calm about all of this...it's happening, we really are having another baby...and I'm thrilled. Can't wait to meet who we get to call our own from here on out.

The second time it's so eery....the first time around becoming a mother, you have no concept of what it means to bring a baby into your life...how intense and wonderful it is to get to know this new person...now, the second time, knowing a bit more about what to expect...understanding that in a matter of a few weeks, I won't be able to imagine my life without this person who, at the present moment, I cannot even fathom....I mean, that's WILD, isn't it?

Benjamin...Benji boy of mine...who will you be baby boy?!!