Any other Crazys out there?

[maranapanda]

I feel like I am going out of my mind!! This pregnancy is such a shock, I had no time to plan. I am a planner. I plan things. I feel so caught off guard, and I can't get myself to slow down this crazy train. I am not driving it. I spent the beginning wondering if or how I was going to handle baby #3. I am almost 60 lbs over weight. Not my ideal. I had just spent a year convincing myself and getting used to the idea that we were done, no more children. After my BFP, I went into denial. Trying to explain to my husband that the other pink line wasn't even there. Because if I were really pregnant, I would know. I always know. I've taken 4 tests now. Then Last night I was feeling so sick. I was miserable. Now today, I am not feeling sick, I am sick with worry. Now that I am pretty darn sure there is a baby there, I am so scared I might not get to keep it. And of course, if something were to go wrong, it would be my fault. I wasn't excited enough, so the universe said "no baby for you". I have gone ahead and told our close family about the baby, as I am a big talker, and I really can't be expected to keep this kind of thing on the down low. But even as I would tell each person, in the back of my mind I felt like I was gossiping about someone else. "did you hear so and so is having a baby!!!" I haven't' even said the words "I am pregnant" out loud yet. That was my first time typing it, I think. I don't know, because I am CRAZY. All of this in 4 days. Oh goody.

So there it is ladies. Anyone else, even a little bit out of their minds here?

[PugMom4Now]

I'm with you. During the first few days I told DH that "pregnant" sounded like a bad word when used in connection with us. It just wasn't real. Now that I've known for almost 2 weeks, I'm feeling less terrified that I'll lose the pregnancy - I still hold my breath a bit when I wipe and get excited when it's clean... Now I'm settling into the excitement of it all. It's my first and we have so many big things to figure out, but this has to be normal.

As to telling people, I can't keep my mouth shut. I'm so giddy! All of our close friends and family know. I've told a couple people at work, but don't actually plan on telling my boss until 12 weeks. I'm just hoping that the morning sickness stays under control so that it won't be obvious in the office.

[PugMom4Now]

Double post.

[jeannineb]

I am a little on the crazy side, but trying to keep it contained. A little background, a year and a half ago I was misearble, living in another country and in a BAD marriage. I left with my daughter, came home to the states, found the love of my life , got divorced, got remarried (3 weeks ago) and got pregnant on our honeymoon! I was NOT excpecting to get preggers on the first attempt, as it took 7 years to get DD. Obviously, I am more fertile than I thought! We are thrilled to be expecting and we planned to start trying right off the bat, since we are not in our 20's anymore (I am 37, DH is 45), but did not expect it to happen so quickly. To top it off we just started building a house and it most likely will not be finished until a couple of months before the baby is due. I am blissfully happy and sooo excited, but man, it has been a whirlwind of a year!

[maranapanda]

Originally Posted by PugMom4Now

I still hold my breath a bit when I wipe and get excited when it's clean...

I hear ya. I am right there with you on this. The other night I didn't have the light on, but I happen to have my cell phone, so I used it as a flashlight just to be sure the paper was clean.

Yep, you are totally normal. First through whatever, its big. First is full of the most unknown. Enjoy the ride!

Amanda

[maranapanda]

Originally Posted by jeannineb

I am a little on the crazy side, but trying to keep it contained. A little background, a year and a half ago I was misearble, living in another country and in a BAD marriage. I left with my daughter, came home to the states, found the love of my life , got divorced, got remarried (3 weeks ago) and got pregnant on our honeymoon! I was NOT excpecting to get preggers on the first attempt, as it took 7 years to get DD. Obviously, I am more fertile than I thought! We are thrilled to be expecting and we planned to start trying right off the bat, since we are not in our 20's anymore (I am 37, DH is 45), but did not expect it to happen so quickly. To top it off we just started building a house and it most likely will not be finished until a couple of months before the baby is due. I am blissfully happy and sooo excited, but man, it has been a whirlwind of a year!

Wow, congratulations! On the new house, baby and marriage! With our 2nd we got the BFP they day after we signed papers on our first home. It was a bit of an overload for my dh. Too much new stuff to handle at one time! Here's to you two (three, or four with your dd) being able to take it all in!

Amanda

[jeannineb]

Thanks! You too! Hang in there, and like you said "enjoy the ride"!