Anyone Here Pregnant with History of Miscarriage? - Page 2

[EMandM]

I lost my first pregnancy at 12 weeks, and my second at 14 weeks. Third times a charm, right?

I'm trying to stay positive, but I've dreamt that I've miscarried every night since I found out I was pg. My husband is trying to not get his hopes up. I know what you ladies mean about a "loss of innocence". I know I'm pregnant, but so far that has only brought me pain. At this point, I can say "I'm pregnant", but I can't bring myself to say "I'm having a baby". It's not the same thing to me anymore.

[Surfacing]

One loss early on like 5 or 6 weeks. Always praying for the miracle of life to stick and stay. :

[Nala]

This is pregnancy number 9 for me, I have one daughter, I have had one stillbirth at at 41 weeks when I was a teenager and one second trimester loss at 17 weeks this fall. The other 6 were first trimester losses. We were not supposed to get pregnant again until at least 6 mo. from September but one careless night led to me being here now. Just hoping that I can add to my family again. My losses have made me appreciate every single moment of being pregnant, I realize it is truly a privilege and something to be cherished.

[ArtsyHeartsy]

Hello~ I definitely belong in this thread. I have had 3 pg, and lost all of them in the last year and a half. I am slightly reluctantly joining this DDC even though I have been lurking since I got my bfp. I am very, very scared of course, but this time around I feel very calm and optimistic. I don't know why but I really hope it's intuition! My sis also had a dream I had a baby girl... She hadn't done that in any other pg. Maybe it's a sign!

I already went through a situation where I thought I lost this one, my hcg had dropped, and now it's normal. This has given me tons of hope! I'm glad, since optimism can't hurt me or my little bugger.

It sucks to have had gone through the m/c's, I have lost my pregnancy bliss, I guess I can be happy though, I appreciate every single symptom.

Good luck to everyone, I'm trying very hard to just be positive!

[rightkindofme]

I have a 17 month old daughter. I apparently caught the first O after having her and miscarried at six weeks. I didn't even know I was pregnant. That was pretty horrifying. I'm trying to be positive.

[maylea_moon]

i had an early miscarriage around 6 weeks back in november of '06. my daughter was conceived the next month and wow was she a suprise!

so yeah, this is my 4th pregnancy, 3rd child (hopefully!)

[tcooper]

I am sorry for all the losses in this group. However, I do feel greatly supported here at MDC.

I am 6 weeks today with my third pregnancy. I have one child, a son, who will be 3 in February. We lost our second baby at 6 weeks 1 day on Sept. 26 of this year. I got pregnant again immediately, which we were not planning, but also not preventing. I wanted to wait for a cycle because I 'hear' it is best to have one period. Making it through this weekend will make me feel better. I am feeling symptoms, which I only had mildly last pregnancy. I am feeling healthy and strong. Wishing you all the best!

[CorasMama]

I'm spotting and cramping today, so I'm not leaving bed except to take the warm bath my midwife suggested. I'm really hoping it goes away soon.

[funkymum]

Thanks for all these posts, mamas! I was due in April 2010 and had been so excited about getting on the forums and participating in the boards. Yet amidst all the excitement, I started to feel a sense of panic over the pregnancy and even more so with the delivery-to-be. Would it be as intense as my first labor? Could I homebirth? And all the other "What if...?"s.

When I miscarried, I didn't go back to the forums. I had my husband talk to his family and requested they didn't discuss it with me. I asked my mom to no longer talk about it with me after she said the things that are well-meaning but off-the-mark in comforting a grieving woman. My DH and a good friend just sat with me at home over the period of two days and let me cry, talk, discuss, bottle up. Whatever I needed.

I came through this feeling healed. I had to ask my midwife if I was abnormal for feeling so okay with things. While I would never say it was "meant to turn out this way", I do feel like having the down time allowed my body and heart to honor the beautiful spirit that had been growing in me for such a brief time. I feel joyous hope for this pregnancy even though it is so close to this experience. Little One's spirit is watching us...

[Raiatea]

I belong here too. Last summer I had a missed miscarriage. The baby had stopped growing at 6 weeks, we found out at 8 weeks and it took until 12 weeks to actually miscarry. It was pretty horrifying. I am reluctant to join this DDC because I'm so scared and won't feel excited until I see a heartbeat on an ultrasound. Since I'm only about 5.5 weeks, I have a few weeks to wait and I haven't made an appointment yet. I'm glad there are other mamas I can share with. This is so nerve wracking! to everyone that we all have babies to hold in July.

[superfastreader]

I lost my first pregnancy at 8.5 weeks. I am not as anxious with this pregnancy as I was with DD, but I will be so happy when we hear a heartbeat.

[veesmimi]

I hope everyone is feeling strong babies growing. As we cross through our milestones, I hope we can grow more confident in the little lives we carry. For those mommies here who have not yet made it through the 1st trimester, or who never got the joy of taking home their infant children, my heart goes out to you especially, and I wish for us all that summer 2010 will bring memories of a glorious healthy pregnancy behind us and our beautiful suckling babes in our arms.

I exceeded my first milestone, of 3, 5 weeks! I'm six now with an ultrasound coming on Thursday-- praying to see that little flicker.

[maranapanda]

Originally Posted by veesmimi

I hope everyone is feeling strong babies growing. As we cross through our milestones, I hope we can grow more confident in the little lives we carry. For those mommies here who have not yet made it through the 1st trimester, or who never got the joy of taking home their infant children, my heart goes out to you especially, and I wish for us all that summer 2010 will bring memories of a glorious healthy pregnancy behind us and our beautiful suckling babes in our arms.

I think this is lovely.

[phriendly_mama]

We were due with our third baby in April 2010. Found out we were pregnant July 30 early in the am and by 7pm I was losing the baby. We've been trying for so long to add our third I am just praying that this baby sticks. I feel a lot of symptoms this time and had none last time.. So I'm feeling positive about that! ...and I'm already milking. hehe.

[ArtsyHeartsy]

Originally Posted by veesmimi

I hope everyone is feeling strong babies growing. As we cross through our milestones, I hope we can grow more confident in the little lives we carry. For those mommies here who have not yet made it through the 1st trimester, or who never got the joy of taking home their infant children, my heart goes out to you especially, and I wish for us all that summer 2010 will bring memories of a glorious healthy pregnancy behind us and our beautiful suckling babes in our arms.

I exceeded my first milestone, of 3, 5 weeks! I'm six now with an ultrasound coming on Thursday-- praying to see that little flicker.

I have also passed a milestone, good hcg readings and I will be 6 wks on Monday. That's past at least one pg so far! I will be checking them off as I go, 9wks being the last (and of course the end of the first trimester!). I have an U/S on Wednesday so we will both have them this week and hopefully have some good "flicker" stories to tell!

[MFuglei]

I guess. . . maybe. . . I'm here.

No, let me try this: Today I am 4 weeks pregnant and I love my baby.

Having bowed out of 2 due date clubs already this year, I'm a bit skittish. I feel good, though - not necessarily about the outcome of this pregnancy, but that we'll be OK whatever happens. And I guess that's a good place to be.

In the meantime, I'm super-nosed and feeling a little icky. I lobbed a call into the doc to talk about betas.

[zoie2013]

Thank you for sharing your stories, mamas.

How is everyone feeling? How is everyone doing? Any worries come up for you? Any positive feelings or events you'd like to share as we walk each other through our pregnancies?

I'll share that I'm thrilled to be nauseous and exhausted because to me it means sticky baby. My 3yo is telling everyone we meet (especially strangers) that "Mommy has my baby sister in her uterus." I wonder if he's right. I'm more nervous about carrying a girl because I have yet to have a healthy girl. I know I can give birth to a healthy boy since I've done it before twice.

[NWmt_mama]

Mamas, thank you for sharing your stories, fears and support.

This is my fourth pregnancy (dd and two m/c). My first pregnancy ended at 10 weeks, then I had dd, and I recently had a m/c at 6 wks. The last m/c really took me by surprise.. not sure why but the thought never came into my head until the bleeding started .

What is very different for us this time around is that we are going to wait to tell our friends and family. We are very open about our losses and have never felt like keeping it quite. . I don't know..this time is different, probably because it was so recent.. .

I'm still in shock that I'm pregnant! Barely 4 weeks. Overall feeling very positive, but have moments of complete fear . . I'm happy to have landed in a very supportive DDC! Got my betas checked on Friday!

[UCmamaToMany]

Originally Posted by Raiatea

I belong here too. Last summer I had a missed miscarriage. The baby had stopped growing at 6 weeks, we found out at 8 weeks and it took until 12 weeks to actually miscarry. It was pretty horrifying. I am reluctant to join this DDC because I'm so scared and won't feel excited until I see a heartbeat on an ultrasound. Since I'm only about 5.5 weeks, I have a few weeks to wait and I haven't made an appointment yet. I'm glad there are other mamas I can share with. This is so nerve wracking! to everyone that we all have babies to hold in July.

This is kind of my story. While I've had 7 healthy pregnancy go to term, last year I had my 1st unexpected miscarriage. We got our BFP in June '08 but in August '08 things went sour. When I started cramping and bleeding around 10 weeks the u/s showed only a 5wk fetus. I was able to miscarry at home thankfully, but it was harder on me than I thought.

Granted, I am less than 5 wks pregnant this time, but half the time I am excited beyond belief and then the other half I am thinking about the "what ifs". That miscarriage is in the back of my mind and while I am seriously hoping for a full term pregnancy I just keep thinking it might not happen, because of what happened the last time.

I am also holding off on telling family until New Years, because by then I will be almost 12 weeks and we should have heard the baby's heart beat by then.

I am much healthier this time around though, so I am hoping that will make a big difference.

My fingers are crossed, but I am really being as cautious as possible with expectations. It's an emotional roller coaster going from a high of excitement to a grounding realization that this baby "might" not make it to term.

There are so many different things going on with this pregnancy that I almost feel like I am pregnant for the first time again.