yikes, how did i lose track of this thread....it's november already!
- my best male friend
has been coming on strong in a sweet mature & respectful way. he also knows about my other current love interests.
- a friend's husband hit on me today. they have an open marriage. i am so not interested. but flattered. i guess i must be putting the vibe out there
- had a beer with Amazon Man
finally after 2 weeks of emailing. sweet, wonderful, warm, genuine, intelligent, interesting, mature man. but zero physical attraction on my part
we had a really sweet time together and i thought at least we'll be friends but then he sent so many texts and emails afterwards telling me how beautiful i am, and finding excuses to write to me..i don't know...it's awkward. but v. flattering and a much needed ego boost.
and the real one...Chicago Guy
(gotta give him a better name). well he went mostly MIA last week. we haven't talked in 2 weeks. YIKES. the 28th was his big work event so i understood. but that's OVER. he finally started texting sweet msgs again, then when i responded i never heard back.
there is a sex & the city episode where Big is in a relationship with an actress and he says over and over "she can *always* find me, but i can *never* find her"
...that's how i feel.
sat night i finally wrote at some crazy hr (2.30 am his time), a little drunk, saying "I don't understand?? i have to conclude none of that was real?? "
. within minutes he wrote back saying "bonsoir. every moment is so real to me, still"
. and that was that...couldn't sleep trying to figure out what on earth is going on there...he sent me another text first thing sun am saying "you remain very real to me, can we set a time to talk tues or wed"
. i was so excited to hear from him I stupidly phoned him immediately but of course he didn't answer. i have no idea what he's up to. i left a good msg for him, and said tues is good.
so i am on edge mamas...not sure what will happen, if we'll end up talking, or or or... it's driving me a bit insane but i also have some kind of trust in the whole situation that's hard to explain. just praying i don't get my heart broken. and that we meet *soon*. last time we talked he brought up the webcam idea and i wanted to scream...Noooooooo, i just want to MEET you....