Smilingeyz: Looks like
should be here any day! Excellent!
AFM: I am PISSED with DH!!!!!! Supposedly we're just "whatevering," right? Well, yesterday we were very touchy-feely...you know, how you both are looking forward to that night?
Well, I did tell DH ealier in the day that in the interest of full disclosre, I had had a few days of EWCF, but of course, given my cycles, that doesn't mean anything. But just based on the quality and quantity of this EWCF, by last night I was thinking that I really might be close to ovulating. So I told DH that last night as were getting into bed. Pause. And so I asked, "do you still want to, or would you rather just go to bed?" and he said, "how about just pull out and (TMI WARNING) finish by hand?" I replied that I"d just rather not. Turned over and faced away from him. Now, if we were seriously TTA, I might be more open, but we're SUPPOSED to just not be caring right now!
If he knew I put those details on here he'd die of mortification
He asked, "do you still want to?" and I said "yes, partly because my hormones are raging and sex sounds really good right now!" but also it's because I do want to get pregnant.
And so I'm upset that I am the one doing all this charting and checking, I am the one telling him about the CF, and he's the one who doesn't want to get pregnant! I told him that we would be talking more about this when he got home tomorrow (i.e. now today). Because I'm done with that. If he doesn't want to get pregnant, then he can read my chart himself, and censor things himself. I leave my paper chart lying around in the office. And he could pull up FF anytime he wanted to.
I'm also seriously considering saying "fine, you don't want to get pregnant? then no BD until 3 days after I've ovulated."
Though that might be a bit harsh.
Ugh. We've been butting heads a lot over things lately, and it's rough on us because normally we get along so smoothly.