Thinking of quitting the job....

[covertlycrunchy]

Ugh! I've just about had it with this daycare situation. I have 2 girls, 3.5 yrs and just one. The eldest one had vaccine reactions at 4 months, 6 months and 8 months. After that we said no more vaccines, we didn't want to take our chances with a more severe reaction. With our second we choose not to vax at all. We are currently civilians serving overseas in the UK, which has no vax requirement for school/daycare. We had our oldest on base daycare which was affordable (had a religious vax exemption) but when #2 went to go into dc they told us that she couldn't because he vax exemption wasn't approved by the PENTAGON yet. WTF??? They told us this 2 months before #2 was to start care. So we got an au pair. We liked her as she was really good with the girls but she was really "flakey" (she was married but decided to take off for 3yrs to travel the world and was surprised when her husband wanted a divorce and got a girlfriend), went home and basically said she didn't/couldn't come back as a result of the divorce proceedings. Fine. Whatever, we kind of expected this. So we hired somebody new who quit after one day because she didn't realize what is was like to take care of a one year old.
SO here I am almost out of vacation leave and on a totally related note having problems at work. Since I was on maternity leave for 6 months my co-workers have gotten out of the habit of coming to me for help in my field, so despite my efforts the past 3 months I haven't felt like I "belong" anymore. I was never particularly good at what I do and have had feelings of inadequacy for a long time. I'm wondering if this whole situation is the universes way of telling me I should stay at home with my kids.
I just don't know what to do right now, sorry for the long post but I really need to get this out I'm just so lost. There may be a chance that I could go p/t, I have to talk to my husband about our finances and whether or not I could do that at work.

Just wondering what other moms have decided to do and why they chose what they did.
Any thoughts?

[rainashine]

I am right there with ya! Except I know our budget and dh's job INsecurity won't allow me to quit right now. Our care provider just gave her two weeks on Thursday and I am now in the position of finding another care provider for my 21 month old for the THIRD TIME in a year. I would absolutely quit if the above mentioned things were not a factor.

[beebalmmama]

I would consider quitting if finances wouldn't be an issue, or at least could be managed. Daycare issues are such a pain. I hope you can figure something out.