I am only 3 days postpartum, and I know I am in the hormonal stage, but I have a history of depression and had PPD with my daughter. I can't stand it. DD is 2 years old, and we have 2 dogs that are making me CRAZY. The house is noisy- not more than normal but it is certainly annoying me more. I am so stressed and not knowing how I am going to handle everything. I feel like I want to just park DD in front of the TV for the day. DD is back and forth about the new baby- she will hold him and give him kisses but she is acting out. Temper tantrums, etc. Everything is just grating on my nerves. DH has to go back to work tomorrow and I have no idea how I am going to handle everything. Not to mention, my paranoia with the baby. It is so hard when they are only a few days old... last night he started choking on spit-up and I was up all night watching him after that. I don't see me getting much sleep tonight either... I want to trust that my intuition will wake me up if it happens again but what if I am in a sound sleep?? He will be side-sleeping with me from now on. Every little thing... it just sends me deeper into this pit o' depression.
