So far, everything has been just about textbook for my pregnancy but yesterday, it felt like the walls started crumbling down
They took my blood pressure at the OB office and found it was high and also that my ankles were very swollen. Doc checked the urine and said there was no protein but she wants to keep a closer eye on me.
She also checked my cervix and found it had made no progress since last week (still just 1 fingertip). Though I know it can change on a moment's notice, we are also both concerned because baby's movements have all of a sudden become very sluggish (I was hoping it was a growth spurt, though she is already measuring large).
Anyway, doc said she was going to help Mother Nature along and stripped my membranes. I had no idea what she was doing until after she was done and showed me the "bloody show" on her hands. I have never felt pain like that before, and though I know she did what she thought was best, it left me angry and upset.
Worse yet, nothing happened! I had less contractions last night than I ever did before and to be perfectly honest, now that pushing for her delivery seems imminent, I am more frightened and feeling unprepared than ever before. I must have gone on 3 crying jags last night - poor DH! Anyway, thanks for letting me get my thoughts down - it feels so much better to talk with you ladies about my fears
They took my blood pressure at the OB office and found it was high and also that my ankles were very swollen. Doc checked the urine and said there was no protein but she wants to keep a closer eye on me.She also checked my cervix and found it had made no progress since last week (still just 1 fingertip). Though I know it can change on a moment's notice, we are also both concerned because baby's movements have all of a sudden become very sluggish (I was hoping it was a growth spurt, though she is already measuring large).
Anyway, doc said she was going to help Mother Nature along and stripped my membranes. I had no idea what she was doing until after she was done and showed me the "bloody show" on her hands. I have never felt pain like that before, and though I know she did what she thought was best, it left me angry and upset.
Worse yet, nothing happened! I had less contractions last night than I ever did before and to be perfectly honest, now that pushing for her delivery seems imminent, I am more frightened and feeling unprepared than ever before. I must have gone on 3 crying jags last night - poor DH! Anyway, thanks for letting me get my thoughts down - it feels so much better to talk with you ladies about my fears







I hope you are able to find some peace in your mind before baby comes. Feeling mentally unprepared is not a good thing... I feel I'm struggling with this myself now. I hope it works out for you. But just wanted to offer hugs...because you have every right to be angry and upset! argh.



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