I had a little episode this weekend. I'm 2 1/2 weeks post-partum and DH and I slept over my brother's house as we normally did pre-baby, to help my brother move. There was so much going on in the main area of the house, so I slipped away with DD so I could feed her and hopefully nap with her. Well, putting her down for a nap took longer than expected. After an hour of fussing and crying, she finally fell asleep in my arms and I was relieved, but at that moment my mom walked in and started talking to me, startling DD. That's when the tears started coming. I wasn't sobbing or totally crying, just tears started coming down. Then, my aunt walked in, saw me crying, asked why I was crying, so more tears came down.
Thing is, I was tired at the moment. DD was congested that night, so we were up much more than usual. Since bringing DD home from the hospital after 1 day, it's only been DH and I. Yes, people come to visit, but not often enough or long enough for me to get some sleep and never overnight. Now, everyone thinks I'm getting baby blues/depression from that one incident. Don't get me wrong, I'm not ruling it out or denying it. I just feel that at this moment, I'm a fairly young (25) new mom who's got this big responsibility on her shoulders all of a sudden.
DH has been phenomenal. For the last 2 weeks, he's taken care of me, the house, the dog, and the baby. But as any mother knows, we cannot get enough sleep no matter what. I'm tired, DD is quite demanding, she's not very easy to put to sleep unless she's nursing, she doesn't quite like her swing yet, and is not easily rocked to sleep. She doesn't like being snugly swaddled with her arms in either.
And it's tough on me for people to see me cry. Everyone that knows me knows that I'm not the type to cry for nothing. So when someone sees me cry, I get embarrassed and that brings on more tears. And when people mind me about me crying and asks if I'm OK or why I'm crying, I get embarrassed and tears come again. That's just how I've always been. And that's what happened this weekend.
Now everyone keeps calling me, asking me if I'm OK. I'm at the point where I'm not even answering calls and asked DH to listen to my voicemails and let me know what they said. I appreciate the concern, but it's almost annoying. I feel like if they keep minding me like this, that it will eventually turn into blues/depression because I'll start believing that something is wrong with me. But for now, I feel like I'm just a tired and sometimes overwhelmed mommy. I've spoken to DH about it and he knows how I feel. And I told him to also watch out and still be open to see signs of the blues.
I know this is long and probably didn't make sense, but I needed to vent to someone other than DH. I've never had thoughts of hurting myself or the baby, I've never had thoughts about being incapable as a mother to my child, I don't hate my child, I don't resent DH, and I've never had thoughts of not wanting to hold and comfort my child. So should I be worried about developing blues/depression or is my reaction reasonable being 2 weeks post-partum with no help except for DH? And today, DH is going back to work. I told him that if I really can't handle it and feel as if something is developing, I would ask him to stay home another week.
Thing is, I was tired at the moment. DD was congested that night, so we were up much more than usual. Since bringing DD home from the hospital after 1 day, it's only been DH and I. Yes, people come to visit, but not often enough or long enough for me to get some sleep and never overnight. Now, everyone thinks I'm getting baby blues/depression from that one incident. Don't get me wrong, I'm not ruling it out or denying it. I just feel that at this moment, I'm a fairly young (25) new mom who's got this big responsibility on her shoulders all of a sudden.
DH has been phenomenal. For the last 2 weeks, he's taken care of me, the house, the dog, and the baby. But as any mother knows, we cannot get enough sleep no matter what. I'm tired, DD is quite demanding, she's not very easy to put to sleep unless she's nursing, she doesn't quite like her swing yet, and is not easily rocked to sleep. She doesn't like being snugly swaddled with her arms in either.
And it's tough on me for people to see me cry. Everyone that knows me knows that I'm not the type to cry for nothing. So when someone sees me cry, I get embarrassed and that brings on more tears. And when people mind me about me crying and asks if I'm OK or why I'm crying, I get embarrassed and tears come again. That's just how I've always been. And that's what happened this weekend.
Now everyone keeps calling me, asking me if I'm OK. I'm at the point where I'm not even answering calls and asked DH to listen to my voicemails and let me know what they said. I appreciate the concern, but it's almost annoying. I feel like if they keep minding me like this, that it will eventually turn into blues/depression because I'll start believing that something is wrong with me. But for now, I feel like I'm just a tired and sometimes overwhelmed mommy. I've spoken to DH about it and he knows how I feel. And I told him to also watch out and still be open to see signs of the blues.
I know this is long and probably didn't make sense, but I needed to vent to someone other than DH. I've never had thoughts of hurting myself or the baby, I've never had thoughts about being incapable as a mother to my child, I don't hate my child, I don't resent DH, and I've never had thoughts of not wanting to hold and comfort my child. So should I be worried about developing blues/depression or is my reaction reasonable being 2 weeks post-partum with no help except for DH? And today, DH is going back to work. I told him that if I really can't handle it and feel as if something is developing, I would ask him to stay home another week.
sounds normal to me. DD does not like swaddling but loves the sling and often will pass out in it when I'm carrying her around doing normal stuff (cooking, laundry, etc)
