thanks so much guys, your kind words brought tears to my eyes.
to answer a few questions that were posted: my first son came 2 days early and the sac was so strong that when the mw went to break it (when he was almost crowning) she was amazed at how thick it was. Who knows what happened, they think possibly bacteria weakened it, so to the PP who asked about GBS, I'm waiting for results I think we'll find out today or tomorrow. We hadn't checked yet since I was only 32 weeks.
Mandie, thanks, hubby will be able to bring the beads in so I'll just leave it be. Plus with all the swine flu rules they may not be able to give me a package sent here anyways! lol. They only allow 2 visitors at a time, go figure, I have no idea how that helps prevent the spread of disease... oy.