I am 12 days PP and thought I was doing well up until yesterday. My mom left Sunday morning so I've been on my own with the kids since then and I think my body is not appreciating the rush back to business as usual. Brenan got thrush on Saturday, Sunday he vomited 5 times and pretty much screamed all day. Went in to see a ped on Monday morning and got Nystatin, which as of today his thrush is almost gone, but he is still a fussy, fitful, gassy baby. He is really hard to burp, but yet really, really needs to burp or he just goes rigid and screams in pain until he does. He has his days and nights completely turned around, the only way he sleeps at all at night is curled up in my arms, which makes me nervous because he seems so, SO tiny, and our first night home I awoke to find him almost UNDER me, and I about died thinking I'd killed him. ::shudder:: Thank God he was fine, I don't know how he didn't suffocate though. So of course, ever since then, I am paranoid all night, every night, which ruins the hour or so of sleep I could be getting between his marathon nursing/burping sessions. I am just exhausted. My bleeding had stopped, but yesterday I had the worst body aches and the bleeding started again. Same thing this afternoon, but I completely soaked a heavy overnight pad in less than an hour. It was all dark brown though, and slowed down drastically after that, so really I think it's just my body's way of saying, "hey, back off, I'm not ready yet". I get it, but there's nothing I can do about it, either. Blah. I wish I were doing as well as the rest of you seem to be...
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12/3/09 at 1:54am