Man. I'm about 40 weeks and 5 days at this point and just yesterday started to feel that weird emotional pressure I remember feeling when I was past my due date with my first...All through this pregnancy I have told myself, and others have reminded me, that since my daughter was born at 42 weeks, it shouldn't be a big surprise if this pregnancy lasts about as long. Even so, all of a sudden it seems as though everyone's getting a bit "So, uh, WHEN are you going to have that baby?" on me.
I had a nice appointment with homebirth midwife yesterday, and then a Kaiser doc appointment today. What a difference between the two! The Kaiser doc informed me that they are now recommending induction sooner for women 35 and older. I'm 35, so they would recommend I be induced, like...tomorrow. (No thanks.) I am so glad to have much less stressy midwives to talk to. Kaiser also decided I should have a nonstress test and u/s today. It made me cry to see that sweet baby face in there---first, just because I haven't seen him/her since I was 20 weeks, but second, because I want to let the baby remain a mystery as much as possible until it's time to come out. It feels wrong somehow, like peeking in at a butterfly before it's ready to crack out of its shell.
Anyway, I came home feeling so blue---the blue moon seems appropriate. But I have to try not to let myself get all weird and absorb tense Kaiser protocol vibes. After all, I'm only 40 weeks + 5 days (and my daughter came out 7 lb and healthy as can be at 42 weeks), and according to Kaiser data (and my own daily observations), this baby is doing great, amniotic fluid is plentiful, etc.
Boy, ranting sure seems to help though. Thanks for posting this thread. It feels good to be reminded how many other women are out there going through the same things.