I am home now. I haven't been very good, but my BP has been just fine. DH didn't want to leave the van there an hour from home when he may need it for the kids. So, I drove the car, he the van. I figured if I felt bad, we could pull over to the numerous carpooling lots and leave the van there. I was fine. Although, I didn't check my numbers after driving 5 mi on the ice on the highway near our little town. I told Dh to check the other hwy when he took my DS to the dr. That way we know which one is clearer IF I go into labor.
I have had some pretty nice ctx, even in the cervix, but I could do that for 2 days regular and not be in labor yet.
DS has been needing to go to the dr, as his coach was getting mad that he hadn't been diagnoses, and the spot on his ear was worse. I didn't know he had developed spots on his face (after I told him to STOP picking at it), since I was gone and DH was at work. So, he does in fact have impetigo and can't be on the mats for wrestling until it is cured. And, I just thought about it, he can't touch any babies either. Yikes! I thought he got psoriasis, as it didn't look like ringworm, and I developed psoriasis just after my 15th bday. I should have known. I didn't realize wrestling was so diseas-y.
DH had to move a child around and was bringing the 2yo home. That way, he can lay with me, or be with DH. My friend will get me when labor hits, or we will meet her. Or if we were doing a routine csection, she was going to be there for me. He would be with the 2yo.
The dr did say no pre-e or pre-e developing. He said DEF Gest Hypertension. That mostly means that it is lower blood flow to the baby from HBP, but I probably wouldn't be in any harm.
DH joked as he was leaving, and would be gone for about 6 hrs, because of the length of drive to the kids, the appt, and trips to the stores, to do the laundry, fold while on the couch. He was already being a jerk about making me lunch after I drove the car home. Well, I also got it stuck in the drive, then he got it out, restuck, and wanted me to come back out to help him. I was calling for help on the phone to a neighbor when two big strong men came over seeing what happened, and pushed it out for him. LOL PTL!! He has had me carrying 16 ft drywall in my last month too, because he had no other help, and didn't ask for it. I was totally ticked. His dad did that to his stepmom too. I really thought that he would take me on so I could be on home bedrest, since he is the one that said to go in, when I got bad readings while ON bedrest. I am better now, and he doesn't want to take me back, I am sure. But, maybe that is his goal, I don't know.
He seemed mad at me today. He griped yesterday morning when I told him that I was postponing the csection because it wasn't indicated nor in our best interest. We were both stable, I was better. I could go with the moon. So, today, when he acted mad at me, I asked what his problem was, and he acted like he didn't hear me. I think that he wanted me to just do the section for insurance and work issues. We had already discussed all this. If we went RCS, then he would take off longer when his vacation days come in tomorrow. And, our OOP costs would be much more with the section, but if any of this happened after the first, we would get slammed with new year deductibles. Ppl said that it is one pregnancy, one bill. His HR lady said that isn't true. New year, new deductibles no matter what. It doesn't matter. I don't think going over is going to cost us more. And, nothing is worth an unnecassary csection. I have other kids to care for. Ppl make it out to be no big deal.
I wasn't too much against the RCS, but then I read the paper and realized how dumb it would be, if I can have a natural birth. Even if I opt for the epi because once I am there, I will not be allowed to move around because of the BP problems. I don't want to be tortured. Bed labor can take longer and I always labor in the tub and shower.
I was so wanting another UC. I figured that even a hard PG doesn't necassarily mean a hard birth. I didn't mind doing the 911 thing after she was out, to be sure that I didn't have another PPH issue at home. Just "oops" and go in for the PP time. Have her checked out since our last baby had health issues, although those were found later. I thought we could still do it. But, here I am. It will be kind of nice to have them taking care of all of it, in some ways. But, it won't ever go the way I would like it to in a hospital, no matter how gentle or unintrusive the hospital or drs are.
I also wonder how much the past 20 mo of stress has played into this. Could I have caused my own drama?? I was crying last night, because I really missed my kids. Before that, I was emotional missing my 2yo, since we've never been apart overnight. He has the med issues, and although I promised that I would not love him more than any of the others, we ALL do, we ALL spoil him just a little more. Every time I thought about it, I would just sob. Last night, I lost it over being separated from the kids. I like my noisy busy bunch. I kind of want this over with, so that I can get back to my kids. Even if that means they take care of the major stuff like dinner and laundry, at least they would all be with me. DS goes back to school on Tues, and he is a huge help. It would be nice to have him home during recovery. And, I like his company, well, now that he isn't being a bear. LOL He gets cabin fever.
So, this year has to be a better one. I thought that 2009 would be better than 2008, and that didn't happen. But, 2010 HAS to be better. This is a girl. She should be healthy, we think she is. A newborn will give us a little distraction from the health issues that have popped up with a few of our other children. It all has to calm down, otherwise I may end up with chronic HBP. BTW, the dr said that he didn't think that I had chronic HBP even though I had headaches early on. Just GH.
Well, I am having some good CTX, so if they get into a pattern, we may get our little tax deduction or first baby of the year after all.
Okay, so I expect SOMEONE to say that they had the first baby of the year where they are at.


