hey mamas, I'm never on anymore, but had some questions that just BEGGED for this thread...
please forgive the longwindedness
I would like to hear experiences from heavy/long term medical smokers about quitting. I would consider myself a heavy/long term smoker, but have quit a few times for various reasons. The first time a month before my LO was born for 1 mo. before until 1 mo. after- for obvious reasons. The second time several weeks ago, because it just seemed I was medicating a lot more than really participating in anything else. I kind of felt like a person having to carry around oxygen in order to breathe at all... Sure, I'm still alive, but very cumbersome. I just felt like my body needed a "medication break".
The first time I didn't notice ANY withdrawal or cravings whatsoever. In fact, it really drove it home just how safe this medication is. THIS time, however, I have been plagued with some days of severe anxiety (one of the reasons for medicating at all) severe headaches and fatigue. Not constant, but enough that it made me wonder about the role MJ might be playing in it. It's not even every day.
I keep remembering how the cold turkey worked for me before and I didn't really have any of those symptoms, even though I was under a great deal of stress. This time, I am having "issues".
Is there any info that you know of, by people FOR MJ use, that can give more insight? It seems all the info I can find on "withdrawal" or "quitting" is about buying into rehab and anti drug info... not exactly the people I trust to tell me the TRUTH about MJ effects, cutting down from overuse to "just" therapeutic use.
Have you experienced any "ill effects" from quitting mj and how long did it last? I am not convinced it's the quitting that is CAUSING these problems for me, (I have some other stuff going on that might be causing some of it) I do know MJ would help with them. I'm torn. :-(
I have cravings, but the cravings have more to do with wanting to alleviate my symptoms (headache, body pain, anxiety) than they did before I quit. It was PURE physical habit of: smoke before bfst, lunch, dinner & bed or whenever i have it
Like a cigarette smoker smokes
I'm struggling with re-starting mj use, because on the one hand, I would be highly medicated with dangerous pharms if I left it up to the HCP's, yet on the other hand, I don't want to be a broke, unmotivated pothead all of my days.
I'm in a better place than I WAS for limiting use to as needed basis because of my supportive environment, but I am honestly afraid to get back into that 16 hr. a day smoke fest pattern that I felt was so unhealthy for me. To me, that's no better than being strapped to an armload of pharms. It's the reason I stopped cold turkey... I didn't seem to be able to cut back while in the situation I was in before I stopped this time. I actually had to remove myself from my environment (house, dh, urban living) in order to detox. My detox period has involved lots of primitive natural living and hard physical work without a house, dh or urban living.
I had a doctor that tried to prescribe me xanax long term once, and when I asked him about addiction, his response was, "better to have quality of life and be addicted, than to have a piss poor quality of life with no addictions"
I thought that was very irresponsible of him, although I KNOW xanax and MJ are two different balls of wax. One being very dangerous and the other being very safe. This thought came up again during my process this time.
Ideas? Thoughts? Experiences?
My head and neck is killing me, the anxiety isn't much fun and all I can think is that a little puff or two would do the trick. This is where the fear of "addiction" and "overuse" comes in. I was DEFINITELY using more than I NEEDED to alleviate my ongoing health problems.
I really don't want to get back to that place.
I'm not going to over medicate if I pop a couple aspirin, this I know, but aspirin is only going to do so much for me in my case. I'd rather have a puff or two, but I'm afraid I'll start that same build up of "too much-too often" that seemed to happen over time.
When I quit this time, I wasn't saying "I'm never going to use mj again." I was saying, "I really need to get off this treadmill of overuse." I didn't have a time frame in mind, and certainly didn't have any ideas as to what would happen NEXT.
Well, NEXT is here and I'm feeling some anxiety over it.