Hi, I don't want to thread hijack, but I feel like this is happening to me, too. But my baby is 7.5 months old now. I am within the last couple weeks becoming consumed with anxiety for my children. I didn't have this problem after my son was born two and half years ago. My anxiety is beginning to simply make me start obsessing about their safety and having fearful thoughts that are very very obtrusive. I keep hearing about babies getting killed accidentally or getting a horrible illness and I keep thinking, "Why wouldn't this happen to me?" to the point where I am afraid to just be happy because I don't want to get "caught" unprepared and have tragedy strike. I attribute a lot of this to my current situation: we moved from FLorida to Wisconsin two weeks after my daughter was born. I had a cesarean. (both were by cesarean). My husband works A LOT. A lot, a lot. I have no family here. It is now cold and horrible (weather wise, Wisconsin is a very nice place) here in Wisconsin. We are moving AGAIN (thankfully back to Florida) in the summer, so that is something to look forward to. But we will be renting again, for who knows how long until we can afford a house. So, lack of stability, lack of any real strong network (I have some friends but, you know, no besties). I do have a history of anxiety and I was doing so well for so long, but now, it's rearing its ugly head and I feel like I am floundering. I feel like I am constantly working at keeping this house clean and have no time for myself. But I know I just need to ask my husband to take the kids for a time and I could go do some Yoga or other things that I enjoy. I am just making excuses and I feel out of shape, unhealthy and unhappy. I LOVE my family and having children is the biggest blessing in the world. I am just so worried about something happening to them. It seems every day something sets me off to worrying. Just today I was browsing around the internet and ran into this site where people write the name of their baby who has passed away into the sand. Well, I have this beautiful picture of my daughter's name written in the sand that I took (and wrote) before she was born and before we even knew she was a she and now I feel like I doomed her or something!! WTF??!
I hate this.
So, sorry to hijack. I was actually just coming on here to post a topic with the exact same title. Thanks for the all the positive responses.
By the way:
-yes, I am breastfeeding
-I take Omega 3's (about 3000 mg daily)
-2000 mg of Vitamin D
-A flintstones vitamin
-fenugreek 3x day
-I have ativan for extreme circumstances scripted to me by my last OB.
-I have NO doctor here and since we're moving again, I almost feel like, "what's the point". Besides, I have no way to get to the doctor (as my husband is at work - I do have a car) and I am not leaving my kids with someone I don't know... is that a bad excuse?!
So... Thanks if you've read this. I just needed to write it out.
Originally Posted by thefragile7393
Some great books--The Anxiety And Phobia Workbook, Edmund Bourne (any of his books are great)
The Pregnancy and Postpartum Anxiety Workbook: Practical Skills to Help You Overcome Anxiety, Worry, Panic Attacks, Obsessions, and Compulsions
by Pamela Wiegartz
Pregnant on Prozac: The Essential Guide to Making the Best Decision for You and Your Baby
~ Shoshana S. Bennett
Shoshana Bennett is a wonderful resource for all this, she has a few great books out.
Motherrisk.org is a great resource about medications and breastmilk.....I used them while pregnant with my son and stuck on a med I could not come off of (Effexor XR) and was able to safely take that and Klonopin prn during and after pregnancy.
I've dealt with this crapola most of my post-pubescent life (anxiety and depression that is)
Thanks for the recs! I actually have done the Anxiety and Phobia workbook a long time ago when I was in therapy (long before I had children). IT might be time to try that again. As well, thank you for the other recs.
OP, I hope you feel well soon.