Your story AND pictures are amazing. You are an incredible woman. I love the sayings you used - they are perfect, so strong and encouraging. I hope you and both your babes are doing well and loving life Heather
Doing well, thanks for asking. Looking increasingly like a turtle with my shell on the front
Hey mamas! So I had the long-awaited doctor's appointment and then couldn't really face the board, or much of anything. If you read my FB, you know we scheduled
Well...it isn't entirely that black and white. My doc explained his many reasons for not wanting to do a VBAC with ME...not that he wouldn't do a VBAC as a policy like my mother had said.
He did address and answer a lot of my questions and said that if I were his daughter or wife, he'd never encourage me to try and VBAC. He just doesn't think it is going to be safe for me. He has repaired a ruptured uterus in a situation that was, in his opinion, the ideal one to have if you're going to rupture. Everything went right for that mother and baby, but that isn't typical.
So I made a deal with him that if, by some miracle, I go into labor before the date of my surgery, he will let me labor and try and deliver my baby. If that happens, mamas, I will stay home for as long as humanly possible to prevent having any interventions at the hospital. When we get close to the date, I'm definitely going to be looking for some labor-inducing suggestions from all of you. I'd love to prove them all wrong and be able to experience natural childbirth!
So I'm a bit of a mess. I feel defeated and disappointed, but overall, I'm trying to embrace the feelings of excitement and anticipation in meeting our new little boy. I feel like the remaining days of this pregnancy amount to an eternity and at the same time, they are flying by at warp speed.
I'm so thankful to have you all to talk to, to seek support and listen to your wisdom. Your individual birth stories give me strength and empowerment, even in light of this situation.
So Marty had a rough day today. We got up, he slept later than me
and then lazily got ready to go out. We went to DSW (mama got 2 pairs of new boots, on clearance for under $60
), Costco, and then the supermarket. I'm pooped! We came home, put everything away, and then he proceeded to have explosive diarrhea in his pants
. I feel so bad for him and his poor little tushy. I put him on the potty and he kept going and going and going...poor baby. Even worse was how upset he was over having a BM accident - that NEVER happens anymore.
We sat down after I cleaned him up and put on the newest Ice Age movie. He was completely entranced and asking me about all the animals. I told him to lean back, relax, I put my arm around him and in about 15 minutes, he was out like a light. I love that so much
He never lets me lay with him, never sleeps with me...it was such bliss and he allowed that to continue for a whole 90 minutes before he kicked me out of the comfy chair
Now he's sleeping peacefully and hopefully healing. I hope it was just all the fruit he ate/drank this morning and nothing more
Off to a tricky tray tonight with a good GF. I hope we win!! I've been to 2 in the last year because of fundraisers for different groups and invitations from family and haven't won a single thing - not even a door prize!! It would be nice to come home with SOMETHING after all the money I've dropped at these things! Anyway
for me tonight that luck strikes my tickets!!