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post #41 of 571
Oh, GrahnolaMum I feel for you, and we all totally understand, the bitterness has to come out! I hope FF is wrong. I've had almost positive OPKs that faded away and then came back strong and very positive a few days later. Hopefully tomorrow will bring better news, and you can always rely on us. You're not a bad mommy or wife for struggling emotionally through this journey. It's such a hard one, and the emotions are real, but NOT exclusive of being a good mommy to the little one you have. Let yourself feel, and know you're a good person.
post #42 of 571
I think Im going to hyperventilate...


Im not going to be totally until my period is missed but...

I had an error from my most recent pee that had a very convincing pink line with it... and since I saved that pee I tested again

and this is what I got: http://canyouseealine.com/view_home_...fm?testID=5131
post #43 of 571
GM
DH tried that too old thing on me once too. (He's 42, I'm 39). I told him, we're going to get older either way. Besides we wouldn't want the poor DS we have to have to take care of us all alone when we're really old would we?

post #44 of 571
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Mae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
post #45 of 571
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Originally Posted by MaerynPearl View Post
I think Im going to hyperventilate...


Im not going to be totally until my period is missed but...

I had an error from my most recent pee that had a very convincing pink line with it... and since I saved that pee I tested again

and this is what I got: http://canyouseealine.com/view_home_...fm?testID=5131
TOTALLY seeit!!!!
post #46 of 571
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TOTALLY seeit!!!!
Yeah me too!! Wooo.. that's exciting!

GM - You've got a lot going on, I hope FF is wrong!! Nobody will tell you to just settle and be happy here.

enigo - I don't think it's boring, looks pretty to me!

YYYM -

AFM -I'm 99% sure that I O'ed yesterday, so for the past two cycles I've had after O spotting, boo. Too bad that's not just a little later!!
We made it with the BDing so at the very least we gave ourselves a fair shot at it. Now let the obsessing begin!
post #47 of 571
OMG, Mae!!! As I said in the other thread, I am sooooo for you!!! Sending anti AF vibes your way!!!!

Grahnola Mum - big s, mama. You're not a crappy ANYTHING.
post #48 of 571
Mae, that's more of a line than I ever got on one of those tests! Woo hoo!

Grahnola Mum, I'm sorry you're having a crappy time. Right after my m/c, I remember being so jealous of another pg woman (a "whoops! we weren't even trying!" sort of pg woman) that I couldn't see straight, then feeling guilty about feeling jealous, then feeling sad and guilty and jealous all together. Just the suckiest downward spiral; I'm so sorry. I still feel that way sometimes about happy pregnant facebook friends who post their BFPs and belly photos and are oblivious and have never had their hopes and dreams smashed to bits by infertility/loss.

Happy New Year to you all! Thanks for letting me continue to stalk you!
post #49 of 571
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grahnola, i'm so sorry. i bet you're not a crappy mom, wife, or anything. everything you and dh went through in 2009 would leave anyone feeling bitter... and just because you so badly want another doesn't mean you love or appreciate the one you have any less.

mae, squee!!! when do i get to move you? :

jessica, gl catching that egg!

afm, hope is dead. it was stabbed in the face by the down-trending temps. i'm fairly sure i'm out, and i had a couple really convincing symps this weekend along with a temp spike, so now i feel like a delusional moron.

my lil pumpker has been re-nightweaned & we are seeing a sleep disorder specialist tomorrow (you'd be shocked if you knew just which specialist this APing co-sleeping mama is going to see). maybe by next cycle's O, we'll at least be sleeping better. the lack of rest makes BDing a chore. and this is only cycle 1 of acu so we'll see what the future brings. no point in testing tomorrow; this chart can't hold a candle to my preg (or even cyst) chart.

i've always kinda wanted a libra baby (an oct 09 baby was my not so secret desire over a year ago) so maybe next month will be it for me!
post #50 of 571
when I get a real BFP... which hopefully is later today.
post #51 of 571
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when I get a real BFP... which hopefully is later today.
Yay! I'm on the edge of my seat!!! Maybe I will get to join you in Sept DDC (although I'd be cusping Sept/Oct if we got lucky this cycle). Something fun to think about, though!

YummyYumYumMama - I'm sorry you're feeling like you're out.

AFM - I've been kinda quiet both because I'm still so very bitter about last cycle, and because I've got the "why should I think this cycle will be different than any other cycle" blues. Ugh, I HATE feeling this way! I need to kick the negativity in the a$$ and get positive. I've got inseminations to do this week, darnitall!
post #52 of 571
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Yay! I'm on the edge of my seat!!! Maybe I will get to join you in Sept DDC (although I'd be cusping Sept/Oct if we got lucky this cycle). Something fun to think about, though!
Oh I hope so! I wish all of you could! Septembers a lovely month to have a birthday (mines on the 4th lol)

This morning... I feel SO sick. Like... almost convinced its morning sickness sick. Like... seriously... almost convinced.

I saved my FMU and when DD gets up we will go pay the rent, water bill and pick up some better hpts (including some dollar tree, I think. I love dollar tree ones. I had NO DOUBT when i got my BFP with DD at 6dpo on a dollar tree)

DFs conversation with me about the pregnancy was... interesting.

We both know its not the best timing (with the wedding coming up and all) and we really should have waited but we didnt want to... not after 6 months of no luck we sorta figured it wouldnt happen this time either.

So his reaction goes back and forth between *sigh* (like... i know hes thinking he wished he had waited.) and - What do you think the chances are that its a boy?

lol
post #53 of 571
Mae, this is so exciting! REALLY have all my fingers and toes crossed for you mama

YYYM . I'm sorry to hear that.

Lyndzies , I hear you but hoping that this cycle IS different for you.

AFM, Thank you all so much for all your support - it really means a lot to me because I'm feeling pretty isolated out here in the bush. I read your replies and cried all over again but because you all totally understand. I'm still feeling rough and guilty, old, and jealous and crappy. I feel like I need to do something drastic with my life to make up for it, you know like become a nun or something, . It's so hard just to hang in month after month...I feel like i'm just watching time slip by. I'm trying to keep busy so I don't dwell on this and get into that horrible space but it's so hard.
post #54 of 571
Bumping us up. I just have a feeling this month. When I use the 'advanced' detection method I am 5dpo, when I use 'research' I am 6dpo.

I can't shake it, the feeling.

I think I am 5dpo, but either way the chances are very good this month!

I am starting to obsess That's not good
post #55 of 571
I prefer Research. Its dead on for me and advanced is usually off. Right now Advanced wont give me ANY crosshairs.

and this is the test from this afternoon with NO editing at all, straight off of my camera: http://canyouseealine.com/hpts/5152.jpg

You may have to squint... the lines a bit darker in person. Its sitting about a foot away from my face and I can still see it.
post #56 of 571
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Originally Posted by BelovedK View Post
Bumping us up. I just have a feeling this month. When I use the 'advanced' detection method I am 5dpo, when I use 'research' I am 6dpo.

I can't shake it, the feeling.

I think I am 5dpo, but either way the chances are very good this month!

I am starting to obsess That's not good
I've been feeling the same way. I mean BD is timed properly. What else do I need? That's the biggest thing. I hate when you get crosshairs and go back and realize you haven't BD in days.

I've been having "Ovulation" pains on my lower right side all day. Way too long to go until AF. I wonder how many times I had these when I wasn't TTC and never noticed. Then...I can't remember a time before TTC.

I just went and got rollerblades for DS. He's 3 1/2. He wasn't too bad, rolled all over the store after a few minutes of rubber legs. (Think Bambi on the ice). I was the freakin' roller blading Queen back before DS was born. Maybe someday he'll be able to keep up.
post #57 of 571
I give up on the whole oh maybe Im not. Okay... so yeah I may end up with a chemical but: http://canyouseealine.com/hpts/5153.jpg that line is PINK

I guess its time, can I be moved to BFPs please?

With help from above, Ill be welcoming another little one come September (due date is the 14th)
post #58 of 571
I don't think I've been this excited since JayJay got a BFP! I've been here too long, she is due in a week.
post #59 of 571
man after it dried all the way its actually quite dark. Im sort of amazed.

I want all of you ladies to come with me now!
post #60 of 571
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