I give up~ whine ahead
I don't know where to post this...seems like i've complained way to much to BF as is. I thought maybe the single parents forum but i'm not sure that they would have any idea's even though i don't think there are any solutions anymore.
I'll try to keep this short but seriously my life is a mess.
I'm still going through divorce. Things have turned...ugly I guess. Exh has gotten a lawyer who apparently is a bit (or a lot?) of a prick. I've been going to SALA/VLP (legal aid) to try and get help HOWEVER they don't actually have a lawyer for you or even the same lawyer to ask questions too...nor do they do any research etc for you. They help you fill out paperwork...and you still have to be there for it. I went to their "workshop" on tuesday and waited 4 HOURS to get seen. Talked to a lawyer and thankfully her assistent (a law student) decided to volunteer to do some case research for me. They put in a referral to get ME a lawyer to represent/help me (seems like it has to be very special circumstances to get) but no word yet. I have pretrial info to be returned to the court by April 12. I have a domestic conference on April 26. I have our actual trial on May 13. Ex's lawyer is apparently trying to get his fee's worth and sent me "discovery worksheets" to fill out...it asks pretty much the same darn stuff as the pretrial statement. I'm guessing the intent was also to try and overwhelm me (obviously know i'm pregnant and going to school). I've considered getting a lawyer on my own...but it's just impossible. A.) I have nothing to pay for it, ex has paid HALF a month of court ordered child support since Jan 1 so i'm borrowing money just to keep a roof over our heads and B.) the lawyer told me that it's unlikely that a lawyer could even take on my case (a paid lawyer not the possible free one) cause the dates are so close and they wouldn't have time to catch up or might not be free those days. Ex's lawyer will be there to be an arse to me on april 26. I'm already dreading all this stuff with less than a month old baby.
Next on the list is that my ex gets out of jail on April 26th. I don't know what to think or what's going to happen with that. I'm not afraid or anything like that BUT he'll be out of jail and thats a huge change and it means he'll be "free" to start doing whatever he feels he needs to do (paternity case, more court, attempting to establish visitation etc).
I'm STILL anemic. I was supposed to go to TMC for IV iron starting monday but things have been so slow and a PITA that it won't start until next monday. I have to do 5 IV's 2 days apart. I *might* be allowed to birth at the center if I get my levels up otherwise I have to be at the hospital. Of course if the levels are low I run the risk of bleeding to much etc etc etc and all that entails. I'm already worried about this birth cause of the "third is always different" to much stress going on in my life and just general unease.
My car is falling apart. Almost literally. It needs about $1500 worth of parts ALONE and it's all front end stuff (IMPORTANT!). Considering we're trying to keep ourselves housed this is obviously taking a backseat but the longer you wait the worse it all gets.
To top this all off I am still a student and have managed to pull a 97% out of my phycology class and so far have an A in my math class AND am almost done with my homework for the SEMESTER...however my brain turned to mush today and I have a feeling I won't get it back until after the baby's born leaving me with 6 assignments dangling over my head to do with a newborn.
I also have to still do taxes and my FAFSA plus see what other grants and scholarships I need to apply for for the next semester..which seems like its something I could put off however the deadlines for many i *THINK* are in May.
So i just don't know what to do...I'm overwhelmed and although I know that getting a lawyer for my divorce and paternity case would remove almost HALF of my stress load but there's no where to turn. I just really needed to get this all out and written down. Thanks.