I think I'm going to have to get an IUD or something again until our "official" TTC date. My husband is making me so mad though, who knows if we'll even be having sex in the next ten months!
We had a conversation last month about how he's not listening to me when I tell him I'm fertile, and I don't feel like I should babysit him with condom use because he knows that I am ready to try for another baby any time. I assume that if I do my part and let him know what's going on, he can do his part and decide what kind of risks he's comfortable with. So this month, the same thing is happening again! I tell him I'm in my fertile phase and then he gets mad later on because uhm, I didn't tell him?! No, he didn't listen! I keep him well informed about what's going on and when I ovulate and what my CF is like and on and on.
I guess I'm just really mad that he's putting me in this situation where he isn't taking responsibility for his actions, and I don't want to have a baby with him when he's acting like that! We even said we're just going to stop avoiding when it's time to TTC instead of actively trying, but now I'm thinking that's a stupid idea because he's always acting surprised when he "finds out" that I'm fertile. UGH!
So, I'm just going to get an IUD again so I don't have to deal with his stupid BS. I am so mad at him. And I'm mad that I have to work and I can't stay home with the kids we do have! Sometimes I feel like having another baby is the only way I'll ever get to stay home, and that makes me really sad and mad at the same time.
Sorry for the long post - I just have no one else who understands this that I can talk to right now.