Does it ever stop HURTING????
there's another pregnancy in my circle of friends. My DS is 3 and I'm 33 and wanted to be pregnant by now, but our lives just aren't working out that way. It looks like another baby is a good two years away.
We're trying to be so responsible and wait to have a baby when our lives are back to being stable. We're both jobless right now but we're always sooooo tempted to just cash out some investments and live off that and have another baby. Instead, we pretend like our investments don't exist and have instead taken cost-cutting measures like inviting my parents to live with us while I look for a job.
But even thought I KNOW we're doing the right thing, it still hurts, over and over again, when people around us are getting pregnant.
I'm trying to learn how to be happy with the very, very good life I have right now and try to keep reminding myself that I am making the best choices for my family... I'm finishing my second master's in just over a year from now and then starting a PhD program that will be almost 100% paid for by a fellowship. And there's some great job prospects and relocation opportunities ahead. Plus, my DH is on a very solid path himself right now and I'm very proud of him. DS is so very happy, sociable and smart..... but sometimes all of this is overshadowed by the GIANT, GAPING HOLE in our lives that will someday be filled by another baby.
Okay, vent over. I was bummed by the news of this friend's pregnancy, so for the first time in my life I'm pulling out some investments (just a tiny bit, I promise!!) and taking the family on a trip to St. Croix this winter, which is just about when all these babies are due.