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Feeling like a Big Dummy

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Well, I feel like a big dummy. I was fretting over the weather that was going to come down. But, also, I had been having some REALLY hard contractions early afternoon yesterday. I had had about 6 or so in one hour, and I have been having other signs of impending labor. One which was early in the morning, I felt like my hips were being widened. Didn't hurt, just a lot of pressure. Well, the baby has continued to drop, and that would be the reason for that. There is definitely some things going on. I continue to have some contractions, but I was also able to sleep through some.

So, here I sit, at the hotel with my friend who would be my labor support, and I think I was being a little premature. I REALLY thought that because of how many I was having (and had here) that this could really be the day. With the snow coming in, 3rd night of the full moon, and my friend saying that the baby would come tonight because of all the different signs I am having, I didn't want to have to rush in the middle of the night. So, DH got us a room 5 mi from the hospital, and we left yesterday around dinner time.

I have had a couple hrs of sleep, which I thought would give me some time to rest up before the "real thing", and now I don't think the real thing is going to happen. I figured if not last night, this next night. But, then I have to decide if we take another hotel (DH doesn't know if he has more points or not but is checking) and end up without points, no more rooms if we have to go home. Actually, if we stay Sunday night, we do have the non stress test on Monday, and we go from there. My lap top tends to give me CTX, so I thought I would give it a shot.

Now, my BP had been up all night. I even got a reading of 100 on bottom once (thats bad). Lots of 90s. But, if I lay on my side, most of my ctx go away. I never have 90s in the evenings. And, so I thought that if this is real labor, pain or no pain, my BP would be slightly elevated compared to the usual. I did take dinner downstairs with my friend, which included walking all the way to room, going down stairs instead of elevator down the hall, discovering we were on the wrong floor, so going up one leg of stairs, and walking back to elevator, to walk all the way back to the room. I waited to take my BP, and really messed it up with all that activity. If I am walking, I am getting some nice CTX, and I know if I walked, we might be able to get things going. As far as dinner, I didn't want to ask my friend to be my servant, although I might have asked my DH. LOL We have continental bfast, so I may have her get that. The last time I didn't follow orders, I ended up in hospital bedrest, induction, and stressed baby. So, I really want to avoid that. The baby seems pretty happy though, so that is good.

So, I think I jumped the gun. I have EVERYONE asking, texting, calling, if I have had the baby yet. Not just last night, where I shared my inside info with very little, but every day I have been overdue. I know this pressure isn't helping. And I really would like to have the baby before the end of the weekend. There is going to be quite a bit of snow tomorrow(not on the 2nd and thankfully that didn't happen), but not too bad. Tonights snow didn't really stick on the roads. I could probably easily get them to keep me tomorrow if my BP is whack or I am having regular ctx. Since I am having some spotting with show, there is obviously some cervical changes, as I have never had that before really. My initial evaluation was that I was having these hard contractions, and now, I can actually feel the baby's head when I checked to see if I had dilated more. I couldn't do that even the night before. By tomorrow night, we could have a baby. But, now I feel like a dummy that I should have just slept on it last night, and then went from there today.

Not only that, but I figured that it wouldn't be hugely terrible if it did end up being a "girls night out" since between the two of us mothers, I am having #20. LOL I thought she would enjoy the reprieve. But, by the sound of things, her DH calling often, and her saying that she was having separation anxiety from her kids, mabye I was asking a lot for her to be my labor support if the birth and all doesn't go as fast as it usually does. Once it kicks in, it may go fast, but one can really never know, esp since I am on strict bedrest. She always said that she loves this stuff and would do whatever I needed, and now I feel guilty too. Ugh.

Need. to. have. this. baby. LOL Kymberli
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No advice, but hope you are holding your LO soon.
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Thanks. I may have to go in tonight regardless for my BP is not good. It was good when I left, and it has been creeping up again, even though I am in the hotel without talking and laying about. Talking makes it high, but my friend had been sleeping early this morning, and took a nap (doesn't get much sleep at home with 12 kids), that I should have good pressures for being afternoon.

I did hit 100 last night once, and I probably should have gone in, but the weather was bad. The roads are much better now, the snow has stopped. The NST is tomorrow morning, but I have been told not to mess around. Since my paternal grandmother had strokes at a young age, my paternal grandfather died at 34 from a heart attack. And, my maternal GM has heart and BP issues. But, I have always stayed so low, so BP has never been an issue. Maybe I just am not taking it seriously, but it is hard to when the other MW/OB were so blasse about it.

So, anyway, I sure hope this kicks in SOON. I could have the baby before midnight tonight on my DD's bday, or tomorrow on my stepmother's bday (who I am best friends with). Kymberli
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