Originally Posted by louoftwo
Has anyone ever dealt with feelings like these and continued to nurse their babies? Did things improve any? Has anyone ever given up and if so did things get better or worse? Any insight would be greatly appreciated.
I felt this way for the first 2 months of BFing. I almost gave up at 6 weeks, because my nipples suddenly started bleeding as well. I would get very agitated though, and I dreaded feeding him after finishing the last feeding. I was in tears about it often as well. And no, I was not going through PPD. The 2 am feedings were always worse. I admit that I had to set him down once or twice, because I would get irritated, or I would finish and put him back in his bassinet next to DH and walk out of the room, because I need to cool down.
One thing that I think will help you, is getting to the 4-5 hour stretches at night. My nighttime feeding with DS got a LOT better when I just got 4-5 hours of sleep, even during the day.
You sound like you really want to BF, which is a good thing, because I think that's what pushed me through, is I didn't want to give up. I did, however, start pumping every other time to give me a break, and for some reason that really helped me. I didn't want to and DH kept telling me to see if it would help, because I would be in tears while BFing. I only did it when things got really bad usually, because I was afraid of losing my milk (which I didn't, since I was BFing every other time, and didn't do it for overly long periods of time).
Things did eventually improve, but I will admit that they got a little worse before they improved. I kept telling myself 'things can only go up at this point' when I was feeling really down. I almost gave up, but the pumping thing had helped. Distracting yourself is probably another good thing. I did that also.
I hope this may have helped and that things get better for you quicker than they did for me. It will get better, no matter what decision you make, whether you BF or give your baby formula. And your baby will be okay, so don't obssess too much over guild trips you get for not doing things any particular way.