Having a child is the most wonderful thing. Time is flying by, who would have guessed, that our little guy is already 11weeks old today?
Breastfeeding is routine by now, although one of my nipples has not healed yet.
We are almost done with our first bronchitis. I would have never thought, that I could go days with almost no sleep just to sooth my little baby at night, keep him upright and comfortable.
We made our first trip across the Atlantic (another death in my family); a 3 day trip with crazy wintertime airport travel, but my little guy and I made it. Daddy cried for 2 hours after we both left, because he missed us so much!
We had another growth spurt. Isn't it amazing, how they suddenly know what to do with those little fingers, one day he could not hold a rattle, and the next he held it tight for 15sec or so!
I am trying to catch up with my work at school, I am way behind due to the craziness of the last couple days and feel really guilty for not being a better student.
I am afraid of burning out...
I am afraid my little guy is not happy enough. He smiles and seems content, but I always feel other babies constantly smile and cooh and laugh, when I read around the web. Maybe I need to meet other moms and their babes?
Dh misses dtd and me too, but my tear still hurts and I am afraid of the pain.
No need to say anything here, I am just sharing my thoughts.
Breastfeeding is routine by now, although one of my nipples has not healed yet.
We are almost done with our first bronchitis. I would have never thought, that I could go days with almost no sleep just to sooth my little baby at night, keep him upright and comfortable.
We made our first trip across the Atlantic (another death in my family); a 3 day trip with crazy wintertime airport travel, but my little guy and I made it. Daddy cried for 2 hours after we both left, because he missed us so much!
We had another growth spurt. Isn't it amazing, how they suddenly know what to do with those little fingers, one day he could not hold a rattle, and the next he held it tight for 15sec or so!
I am trying to catch up with my work at school, I am way behind due to the craziness of the last couple days and feel really guilty for not being a better student.
I am afraid of burning out...
I am afraid my little guy is not happy enough. He smiles and seems content, but I always feel other babies constantly smile and cooh and laugh, when I read around the web. Maybe I need to meet other moms and their babes?
Dh misses dtd and me too, but my tear still hurts and I am afraid of the pain.
No need to say anything here, I am just sharing my thoughts.
And I barely even tore (just had a little "scratch" that didn't even need a stitch). I'm sure my hubby would like it more now, but... he has a little teeny problem understanding that I am like a crock pot: if you want me to be ready at night, you better turn me on in the morning and keep me warm all day. 
As it were, we used copious amounts of lube. Still didn't feel right. Hopefully with time.
