hi all, i have some catching up readin to do here but i'm looking forward to this years TM.
last yrs was quite amazing, i'd say almost everything on there has come to fruition; finding peace with being a single mama, finding a new home that feels like sanctuary, hormonal balance, exercise, nature, friendships..
i learned some interesting lessons about how things can manifest. for example i out a specific buddhist teacher on there, and when he came to town i was so heartbroken that the tickets to see him were sold out. i ended up going off to the ocean for the weekend and reading his book on the beach. i felt closer to him than in a 2 hr group talk and felt transformed. when i looked later at my TM i saw i had put his photo right on top of a picture of a woman meditating on a beach exactly like where i'd ended up
another example is apicture of a man i was inexplicably drawn to, i put him in the support/community section. well last sept i met a man online who *is* the man in the photo, in so many ways...we've been trying to meet for months now, talking long distance (2,000 miles) since sept, and now we're about to meet IRL next week. EEK! exciting and anxiety ridden all at once. but i thought how perfect the timing is, from fall equinox-spring equinox, then we meet right before i do the new map.
when i kept wondering why don't i have a man in my lfie, or why can't he and i meet, i realised it was to do with where i put him on my map, and the section for love is just an empty bed with some nice sheets. and i did get the nice new sheets this year! lol.
so i wonder if i should cut him out and move him this week, or no? he has definitely been an enormous support to me for 6 months, which is the section he was in
the only last thing on there , which i've had 2 yrs now, and which hasn't turned into actuality, is a white VW camper van. well it hit me a few weeks ago that that is not so much about owning one as about what it represents which is freedom, and hopes for the future..at one point this man and i talked about driving across coutnry some day in a camper van with my kids in back..
and now the last couple of weeks it seems like wherever i turn there is a white vw camper van, and it's always such a reminger to trust in the future/potential...