Preparing for Treasure Map 2010 - Page 14

[tanyalynn]

And I had my window open a while, and missed the most recent responses, but they were so helpful for a newbie! Thanks.

[Tracy]

sunnysandiegan,

how was the earthquake?

hugs
Tracy

[sunnysandiegan]

Originally Posted by Tracy

sunnysandiegan,

how was the earthquake?

hugs
Tracy

I was upstairs (in a doorway, trained well as a child ) and the whole house was swaying... A LOT! We had things fall over, but nothing was broken and all is well. It wasn't the strongest I've felt, but it may have been the longest. Definitely makes for an exciting Easter story...

Thanks for asking, Tracy.

[Oriole]

Originally Posted by Tracy

Go for it! This is the manifestation of your map from 2009..perfect.
fingers crossed you get it! If not, that is okay, you'll probably get one this year.

checking it out with a contractor (the house is damaged) one last time, and putting in an offer tonight!

[Indigo73]

subbing...

[Tracy]

Originally Posted by sunnysandiegan

I was upstairs (in a doorway, trained well as a child ) and the whole house was swaying... A LOT! We had things fall over, but nothing was broken and all is well. It wasn't the strongest I've felt, but it may have been the longest. Definitely makes for an exciting Easter story...

Thanks for asking, Tracy.

good to know. I'm 200 miles north and I felt it so I knew you were shaking.

[E.V. Lowi]

We felt it mildly up here, too.

[Freedom~Mama]

Originally Posted by ErikaLeigh

last year was a horrible relationship that was VERY toxic relationship and i used my map to bring my self to a much better place.

this year i am jobless (been laid off a month) and working on getting back to school right after TM time so i am again going to try to manifest myself back to a good place.

i would do one mama

Thank you and good luck with your map as well. I am happy to hear that your map from last year helped bring you to a better place. I am hoping mine for this year will as well.

[Anesidora]

Joining in here...

I am ready and excited to do my Treasure Map this year. A couple of years ago, I did a Dream Board for things I want in general (not at the time of the TM).

I want to do the Treasure Map this year the way it is supposed to be done. I have done a lot of self work in the past few years since doing that original Dream Board.

Tracy, I can't thank you enough for all of the wonderful information you have provided. I've been reading all of your updates and links and this has helped me mentally get into a better place to do the TM.

A lot of stuff has happened this year (especially during December). It almost ended in my marriage ending. Was very, very stressed out and felt as though my world had fallen apart and was being left with nothing... and no way out of the situation at hand (starting over from scratch with a daughter) and a husband who wanted to leave me yet keep me in a state I did not want to be in.

We are now in a better spot... marriage back on track and all three of us are living in Oregon (the state I did not want to be in). I basically went through a mini-breakdown and felt "free" from the "trappings" of an unfulfilled marriage through that whole upheaval. However, I can see that the only way to survive and do what is best for my daughter is to stay with my husband of 14 years (even though I know in the bottom of my heart that he will not fulfill me in the ways I need to be fulfilled).

This is what I am struggling with the most at this current time and I am not really sure how to demonstrate on the TM what it is that I am truly wanting from a committed relationship. I actually found exactly what it is I do want from someone during the time we were separated in December. It was absolutely unbelievably lovely and made me feel as though "Yes, this is exactly what I want from a man and what he can give to me in a relationship." Then, it was all taken away from me. I had put lots of stuff on my original Dream Board about True Connection, Fireworks in a relationship, Chemistry, Romance, etc. That is exactly what I found with this other person... only... it wasn't to last...

So, I am now back with my husband... who is not interested in fulfilling those above desires for me. Yet, he is a good provider, supports me being a SAHM and homeschooling Mama... There is just a part of my soul that strives to be fulfilled in ways he will never be capable of filling.

So... where does that leave me in putting these 'specific' desires I want in a long-term relationship that it just doesn't feel like my husband can provide me? After truly feeling it with someone else, I know it is possible. I just feel stuck and that I will again become in "breakdown" mode when my true heart and soul's longings come out again.

I can hold them in for so long. But, yet, I feel as though I have to do the right thing for my daughter, and stay in the exact situation I am in.

Any advice on how to manifest 'specific' desires you have for a long-term relationship that you don't feel is possible in your current one but yet you feel as though you are in the right place practically... I don't regret experiencing what I did back in December (because it was so incredible)... but I don't want to put my desires on my TM regarding a relationship only to have them be short-lived again.

It is as though none of my manifestations are long-lasting... Everything seems to be taken away from me. It is as though I cannot put down roots physically, emotionally, mentally... Feels like I'm just pretending... to be happy. Like... it all looks good on paper... but inside my heart is a different story. But I am feeling selfish because what I am wanting has only to do with my own soul's happiness regarding romantic love... and that I should be focusing on my daughter and wait until I have more time and energy to devote on my own needs????

Basically, I have felt as a leaf just floating and floating around and around with no place to anchor... but yet not just wanting to settle anywhere with anyone or anything....

Sorry this was so long. This past year was so incredibly stressful (DH losing job causing us to move across the country to look for work for him/living with friends and family for a couple of months feeling homeless/losing a home we bought in Texas to foreclosure in January/separation - almost divorce from spouse in December/feeling so far from my family in the South/feeling stuck and having to settle yet again).

I am just ready for manifestation of long-term positive additions to my life.

Main things I am wanting:

1. The feelings/love I felt with the certain relationship in December - being fulfilled in the ways I find important in a relationship - with true connection.

2. Wanting a big circle of "made" family (since my own family is thousands of miles away and cannot afford to visit often) - of friends and people of my choosing - around me to sustain me. I recently found out we will have to stay living in a secluded area (instead of moving into a bigger city around more people) and this will hinder me in creating this feeling of "family" that I am completely craving. Afraid of ending up in the same situation that I was in in December (feeling alone and withdrawn and unfulfilled - which is not my desire even though it is my tendency (to withdraw) when I am stressed or sad. Seeing my real family is something important as well - not having finances to do this more often than once a year.

3. Ability to travel (something my DH does not have the desire to do besides not having the finances to do this).

4. Independence and ability to truly be myself and work on my own things while being married and being a mother.

Again... thanks for any input.

Anesidora

[aweynsayl]

thanks, lovelies. saphire, m'dear-- you made me lol @ "TMs are to help manifest the things we need, babe."

yes, i think "self-care" will be my focus. not anything earth shattering, but golly, is it what i need.

another thought on maps that dont produce... take a deeper look at if what you "wanted" was really what you WANTED, vs. what it seemed might be possible, or what seemed "best," or what you "should" want... kwim? (i know i did that with my last map... trying to create something that seemed do-able, rather than really digging deep and asking what i really want. that's a lot harder than it sounds....)

[Tracy]

Anesidora,

What a thoughtful post. And very candid. Great. Let’s go over some of that candor.

However, I can see that the only way to survive and do what is best for my daughter is to stay with my husband of 14 years (even though I know in the bottom of my heart that he will not fulfill me in the ways I need to be fulfilled).

….read that whole sentence again..and say at the end…”At this time.” Meaning..all that you said is predicated on how you feel at this time.

Then, it was all taken away from me. I had put lots of stuff on my original Dream Board about True Connection, Fireworks in a relationship, Chemistry, Romance, etc. That is exactly what I found with this other person... only... it wasn't to last...

It may not have lasted with that person but it does not mean you should ditch those feelings or words.

Any advice on how to manifest 'specific' desires you have for a long-term relationship that you don't feel is possible in your current one but yet you feel as though you are in the right place practically... I don't regret experiencing what I did back in December (because it was so incredible)... but I don't want to put my desires on my TM regarding a relationship only to have them be short-lived again.

You put those exact words on your treasure map. Just put them up there. Do not put your fear out there with thoughts of “short lived again.”

Everything seems to be taken away from me. It is as though I cannot put down roots physically, emotionally, mentally... Feels like I'm just pretending... to be happy. Like... it all looks good on paper... but inside my heart is a different story. But I am feeling selfish because what I am wanting has only to do with my own soul's happiness regarding romantic love... and that I should be focusing on my daughter and wait until I have more time and energy to devote on my own needs????

This is not either or. Your life is not simply, “I’m a mother therefore I do not get to have a full heart with a man I love”. This is way, way limited thinking. And yeah, I get you are scared you had a hard year, you feel beat up by the universe. I’m going to say this with as much compassion as I can… “guess what, there are a lot of people in the same place.” You are not unique. When 30 percent of the worlds economy evaporates overnight (September of 2008) the ramifications are vast and endless. And there are lots of people staying with people now because they don’t feel they can afford to leave. If I knew everyone of them I would say, “please don’t let that thinking contaminate your treasure map.” “Build your treasure map exactly what you want!”

The feelings/love I felt with the certain relationship in December - being fulfilled in the ways I find important in a relationship - with true connection

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Again, put “True Connection” on your Treasure Map.

2. Wanting a big circle of "made" family (since my own family is thousands of miles away and cannot afford to visit often) - of friends and people of my choosing - around me to sustain me. I recently found out we will have to stay living in a secluded area (instead of moving into a bigger city around more people) and this will hinder me in creating this feeling of "family" that I am completely craving. Afraid of ending up in the same situation that I was in in December (feeling alone and withdrawn and unfulfilled - which is not my desire even though it is my tendency (to withdraw) when I am stressed or sad. Seeing my real family is something important as well - not having finances to do this more often than once a year.

I would put big images of friends and groups and comforting words and affirmations. “I am happy and grateful that I am always loved and supported whenever I need it.”5.

Ability to travel (something my DH does not have the desire to do besides not having the finances to do this).

“I am happy and grateful that I get to travel all the time”

Independence and ability to truly be myself and work on my own things while being married and being a mother.

“I am happy and grateful that I am independent and true to myself”

“I am happy and grateful that I am a great partner.”
“I am happy and grateful that I am a good mother.



It is not a surprise to me that your post came up today. In the last few days I have seen a flurry of strong emotions and a lot of people lost, betrayed, sad, disconnected.... all perfectly Pisces (the backwards fish). It was a tough full moon last week and people are procesing a lot. Your post feels right on time.

Release your fear as much as you can in the next two weeks. Let it go. Ask yourself how fear is working for you? How is your eating? How is your weight? How is your mood? Fear is all over the place, it is natural. But let it go, behind the fear can be a real connection to the universe. (the forward facing fish) Read my new moon article. In the meantime release and get ready to make a great map.

hugs

[ms.shell]

Phrase everything in the positive (avoid the use of "no", "not", "never", etc.). State what you DO want and ignore what you don't want.

I have a big question about this. My dad told me some stuff about this and how the subconscious doesnt recognize "not" or negatives and that you have to be careful with affirmations this way. Like, for example, if you said or thought "I am not fat," your subconscious just hears the I am and the fat, and so instead, you would say "i am thin." or whatever.
SO with this in mind, does anyone have suggestions for what kind of imagery or words to use in order to become a nonsmoker? I think if i put "stop smoking" then that emphasizes the smoking. And i wonder if that is why i still do smoke, as all these years i have been telling myself how much i need to stop smoking. I think maybe the subconscious isnt recognizing the "stop." The only thing i can think of is maybe a picture of clean, healthy lungs, but i would rather think of a good affirmation or some other way to represent this.....thanks for any suggestions or ideas anyone has regarding this....

[Tracy]

Originally Posted by ms.shell

I have a big question about this. My dad told me some stuff about this and how the subconscious doesnt recognize "not" or negatives and that you have to be careful with affirmations this way. Like, for example, if you said or thought "I am not fat," your subconscious just hears the I am and the fat, and so instead, you would say "i am thin." or whatever.
SO with this in mind, does anyone have suggestions for what kind of imagery or words to use in order to become a nonsmoker? I think if i put "stop smoking" then that emphasizes the smoking. And i wonder if that is why i still do smoke, as all these years i have been telling myself how much i need to stop smoking. I think maybe the subconscious isnt recognizing the "stop." The only thing i can think of is maybe a picture of clean, healthy lungs, but i would rather think of a good affirmation or some other way to represent this.....thanks for any suggestions or ideas anyone has regarding this....

"I am happy and grateful to be a nonsmoker."

[ErikaLeigh]

Tracy I have to say that I REALLY appreciate all you do!

[redveg]

Hello all

I printed and read half of the thread, will read the last half today The one thing I wanted to ask, or just put out there is...I am not a very creative person I worry how my map will look, if it will be ok? I know that all the ideas will hit/come to me on the 14th, but I get caught up on the looks of the map itself. This is my first time trying to make a map and I want things to be right. Should I look at TM's or should I just wing it?

[Oriole]

Originally Posted by redveg

Hello all

I printed and read half of the thread, will read the last half today The one thing I wanted to ask, or just put out there is...I am not a very creative person I worry how my map will look, if it will be ok? I know that all the ideas will hit/come to me on the 14th, but I get caught up on the looks of the map itself. This is my first time trying to make a map and I want things to be right. Should I look at TM's or should I just wing it?

I was very helpful for me to look at maps others have done to get some ideas. Some started by breaking it into areas: family, relationships, travel, work, children, finances, self-improvement etc., and then addressed each area. It worked for me as well. Have fun with it, and try to bring as much good energy into it as you can

[*Moomin*]

Tracy, you are absolutely amazing. What a wonderful resource your work here is!

[kathirynne]

I wondered...

why I have been so "DECLUTTER" minded...duh! It's Treasure Map Prep Season.

[LadyCatalyst]

Originally Posted by sunnysandiegan

A few fun things:
~ [Abundance & Prosperity flowers] On the back of a picture I cut out of a magazine (gardening related), I wrote, "Salad comes from her garden." (I noted this in my photos or I wouldn't have remembered this at all. It is not visible.) We have been growing two lettuces and spinach in our backyard for a couple months now. DD picks the leaves for our dinner salads nearly every night!

Hi, just joined, because my friend Maiasaurawinterheart (soo great to see you yesterday, girl!!!!) got me interested in TMing last year (after the date ;() and I am going to do one this year.
Anyway, I was wondering, sunnysandiegan, with the images that you wrote on the back of, were they permantly fastened to your board of could you look at the writing on the back if you wanted? Thanks!

[Tracy]

thank you