One is in a hospital that is 40 minutes away. It would be with the OB/mid wife practice (2 of each) that we're currently with. The hospital talks a good game, each room has showers and tubs, birthing balls, bars, stools, and encourages movement and freedom of position during labor. It's the most progressive hospital around or so it claims. HOWEVER, being a VBAC there is a good chance that I will still be forced to watch a clock and if they insist upon fetal monitoring they might not even allow me to take it off to USE the tub. So I might end up with C-sec quicker there just becasue of the hospital setting. And I'd be 40 minutes away in some random town alone at night becasue my husband would need to be home with our young son.
Other option is to hire a local midwife who our doula suggested because she does home VBACS. We are 5-10 minutes from the hospital where I was forced into a C-sec with my son. Pro's being however that the recovery ward was 100% fabulous and I feel like if i HAVE to endure another C-sec then I want to recover there.
But a home VBAC still has me nervous. I can't shake the fear of uterine rupture and not making it to the hospital on time. And at the the same time I want to be nowhere near a hospital becasue I find them to be unwelcoming, germy, and I'd rather be somewhere I'm comfortable. I feel very scarred from my first hospital birth experience. And I hate that no-children-allowed thing all the hospitals have going on now. Not see my son for 6 days? Sure. That will go over SO well. I've never been away from him for more than 5 hours.
I wanted to birth at a birth center that I visited but they won't allow VBAC and the hospital the midwives there are affiliated with has a very low % of vbac and high c-sec rate. And again, it would be an hour away.
So here I am at indecision city.
I'm scared either way. I furious all over again that I even had a c-sec to begin with. I don't know what to do.
Has anyone had a home VBAC? Complications? I'd love to hear all stories and outcomes.