First PP period. What the h*ll just happened?!

[FondestBianca]

A few days before ds turned 13 months dear aunt flow decided to begin visiting again after wonderful hiatus. Problem (one of them anyway) being, I feel like hell. Like complete dog poo. The week before and the week+ of, I feel like garbage. Feeling of saddness, despair, and lots of fixating on problems that aren't really problems. Horrid sleepiness, insomnia, and lack of energy. I can't deal with this crap... or at least, I don't want to deal with this crap. If I could have my ovaries taken out tomorrow I probably would.

My period didn't skip a single beat after having dd and began again right after the post birth bleeding stopped. That means I have no reference for what my body should being doing after not cycling for so long. On top of this is the annoying and puzzling fact that little over 2 weeks after the first PP period ended another one started. Again, what the hell?

Please tell me I'm not doomed to feel like utter garbage until menopause. I already have enough medical problem with no end in sight... this isn't fun.

[carfreemama]

Don't worry. The exact same thing happened to me after AF returned, around 11 months pp. I was seriously peeved. Dd was still nursing 24/7, around 50 thousand billion times a day and I DID NOT expect AF for a good, oh, 2 years. I've always had very light, frequent periods since I was about 8 years old. I was looking forward to a MUCH longer break. But the major kicker was the complete and utter emotional devastation before and after that first pp period. I thought I was going to DIE. I had NO idea what was happening, until it happened. I mentioned it to several other mothers and I think only one understood what I meant. So I'm not sure how common it is, but it sure happened to me. I guess it was a crash-landing for my hormones, after being remarkably stable while pregnant and pp. For me, at least, it was just that one or possibly 2 postpartum periods and then things were back to normal. Unfortunately, that meant leaking out of every.bodily.orifice. until I weaned dd at 3 years old. But FWIW, I do know absolutely, exactly what you're talking about and it wasn't some new normal for my cycles, thank God!

[FondestBianca]

Originally Posted by carfreemama

Don't worry. The exact same thing happened to me after AF returned, around 11 months pp. I was seriously peeved. Dd was still nursing 24/7, around 50 thousand billion times a day and I DID NOT expect AF for a good, oh, 2 years. I've always had very light, frequent periods since I was about 8 years old. I was looking forward to a MUCH longer break. But the major kicker was the complete and utter emotional devastation before and after that first pp period. I thought I was going to DIE. I had NO idea what was happening, until it happened. I mentioned it to several other mothers and I think only one understood what I meant. So I'm not sure how common it is, but it sure happened to me. I guess it was a crash-landing for my hormones, after being remarkably stable while pregnant and pp. For me, at least, it was just that one or possibly 2 postpartum periods and then things were back to normal. Unfortunately, that meant leaking out of every.bodily.orifice. until I weaned dd at 3 years old. But FWIW, I do know absolutely, exactly what you're talking about and it wasn't some new normal for my cycles, thank God!

good to hear..... I mean, wait... you know what I mean. I sure hope this is a temporary thing. Ds is still nursing lots and I hoped AF would hold out longer.... or forever, whatever. I knew it was coming about 2 or even 3 months before it did because some unsightly PMS was sneaking in. I was so emotionally stable during this pregnancy and the year following that I really never wanted those hormones to come back. I'm trying to look at the bright side about this return of hated estrogen. I've has some PP prolapse issues and I assume this will aide in tissue repair.

This feels horrible. Unfortunatly this is a lot like PMS prior to pregnancy was for me. So in my case these awful feelings may be a reoccuring thing every month. I at least hope they decide to spread out a bit more.

thank you for the input!