We are there, I believe, and I'm dying. I'm so exhausted. We used to do our bedtime routine and swaddle, and I'd nurse him and rock him to sleep and he'd sleep for 6-8hrs in his own bed, wake briefly and nurse like a deprived baby 
and then go back to sleep for another 3-4hrs in his bed, wake and nurse and back to sleep for 1-2hrs in the swing. It never took more than 15-20min of rocking and nursing to get him asleep and he was a happy little sleeping baby.
Now bedtime takes an hour or more. He fights the swaddle, writhing and grunting, twisting in my arms while trying to stay latched (owie!!). When he finally goes to sleep, he wakes and screams almost the second I lay him down. If I do get him in his bed, he wakes every 3-4hrs with his hands out of the swaddle and it takes 2 or 3 times trying to get him back in his bed. He's still my gorgeous happy baby during the day but I'm becoming an exhausting snippy awful mommy to him and my 2 yr old.
I have tried unswaddling him which was horrible. I've tried co-sleeping again and he just wants to lay there and "talk" to me or grin at me and just be completely social and cute which is not what I want at 1am. I finally became so frustrated last night that I just had to lay him down and let him scream while I left the room to try to regroup and gather myself. It didn't really work cause it all ended with me sitting in the glider in his room, sobbing hysterically, while I nursed him for the 7th time.
This is really taking its toll on me mentally and physically. I'm exhausted. I WOH full time and it's affecting my job performance. (I'm a PNP; I cannot screw up and hurt someone else's baby). I'm snippy and short fused with my 2 yr old (that's when I actually get to see him cause this is cutting into what little time I get with him at night).
HELP!!!!!
and then go back to sleep for another 3-4hrs in his bed, wake and nurse and back to sleep for 1-2hrs in the swing. It never took more than 15-20min of rocking and nursing to get him asleep and he was a happy little sleeping baby.Now bedtime takes an hour or more. He fights the swaddle, writhing and grunting, twisting in my arms while trying to stay latched (owie!!). When he finally goes to sleep, he wakes and screams almost the second I lay him down. If I do get him in his bed, he wakes every 3-4hrs with his hands out of the swaddle and it takes 2 or 3 times trying to get him back in his bed. He's still my gorgeous happy baby during the day but I'm becoming an exhausting snippy awful mommy to him and my 2 yr old.
I have tried unswaddling him which was horrible. I've tried co-sleeping again and he just wants to lay there and "talk" to me or grin at me and just be completely social and cute which is not what I want at 1am. I finally became so frustrated last night that I just had to lay him down and let him scream while I left the room to try to regroup and gather myself. It didn't really work cause it all ended with me sitting in the glider in his room, sobbing hysterically, while I nursed him for the 7th time.
This is really taking its toll on me mentally and physically. I'm exhausted. I WOH full time and it's affecting my job performance. (I'm a PNP; I cannot screw up and hurt someone else's baby). I'm snippy and short fused with my 2 yr old (that's when I actually get to see him cause this is cutting into what little time I get with him at night).
HELP!!!!!
I suggest cosleeping and nursing laying down to maximize the sleep you get, and so you don't have to get out of bed.
