I hope this is the right place to post this, I might cross post in the Family Bed. It's 2am and I'm up in the rocking chair freaking out. We co-sleep with ds and a few minutes ago I was up nursing him and noticed that his pajamas were off (diaper on), I groggily asked dh where they went and he said I had taken them off. He didn't know why. Granted it was really warm in our bedroom because I turned the heater in there on last night, but I have NO memory of taking off his pajamas.
The night before a similar situation occurred, I woke up in the middle of the night and found ds's sippy cup in bed, asked dh and he said I had demanded that he get it a little bit ago (11pm). I have NO memory of this. Again, he's getting over a bought of RSV (bad bad cold) and has a cough so I could see why I might want it, but I have NO memory of asking/demanding the sippy cup.
Alone, this might not freak me out but I have a history of anxiety - particularly about 'losing it' and worried that I would sleep walk and do something harmful (which I've never done, sleepwalk or something harmful, just feared both) and for that and other anxiety problems I am on 50mg of zoloft which I have stupidly missed a week of (moved, transferring prescription) and am on day 2 of right now.
Why is this happening?? I'm freaking out and don't want to go back to sleep with dh and ds for fear that I'll do something and not have any memory of it and what if I did something bad?! I tried to wake dh up to talk but he just said to stop freaking out and go sleep on the couch and he'll take care of ds. So here I am, in the rocking chair writing to you all - help! I'm freaking out!!
The night before a similar situation occurred, I woke up in the middle of the night and found ds's sippy cup in bed, asked dh and he said I had demanded that he get it a little bit ago (11pm). I have NO memory of this. Again, he's getting over a bought of RSV (bad bad cold) and has a cough so I could see why I might want it, but I have NO memory of asking/demanding the sippy cup.
Alone, this might not freak me out but I have a history of anxiety - particularly about 'losing it' and worried that I would sleep walk and do something harmful (which I've never done, sleepwalk or something harmful, just feared both) and for that and other anxiety problems I am on 50mg of zoloft which I have stupidly missed a week of (moved, transferring prescription) and am on day 2 of right now.
Why is this happening?? I'm freaking out and don't want to go back to sleep with dh and ds for fear that I'll do something and not have any memory of it and what if I did something bad?! I tried to wake dh up to talk but he just said to stop freaking out and go sleep on the couch and he'll take care of ds. So here I am, in the rocking chair writing to you all - help! I'm freaking out!!
