I'm not feeling very healthy in my head lately...
our 3.5 year old has never slept good and still won't sleep by himself (DH sleeps with him in his room). We have tried on and off to get him to nap (he fights, kicks and screams) and have not been very successful (plus when he gets a nap it takes us forever to get him to sleep at night), so I have had no time at all to myself for the past 3.5 years (he never plays by himself and demands constant interaction). Now we have a 7 month old who will not sleep more than 15 minutes in a swing and will not go down in his crib (I co-sleep with him at night). I have been trying everything to get him to nap by himself but have been unsuccessful. At this point I feel like the worst Mom on the planet. I have been so angry, frustrated and distant because I am losing my sanity. I can't seem to accomplish anything that I know needs to be done (getting them to nap, etc). We can't even put the 7 month old down at night-we have to hold him all night until I get into bed with him.
At this point I feel so disconnected from my DH that I don't know what is going to happen.
I just screamed at DH and he left with both of the kids. I feel terrible and like a psycho.
I just don't know how to make this better.
And what's more, I have only been able to nurse my son on one side, because the other side is flat and doesn't produce much milk. So, I feel really self-conscious because one of my boobs is like 3 times the size of the other one. Hmmmph.
All right, I feel a little better now that I got that off my chest. DH just doesn't understand how hard it is being a Mommy.
our 3.5 year old has never slept good and still won't sleep by himself (DH sleeps with him in his room). We have tried on and off to get him to nap (he fights, kicks and screams) and have not been very successful (plus when he gets a nap it takes us forever to get him to sleep at night), so I have had no time at all to myself for the past 3.5 years (he never plays by himself and demands constant interaction). Now we have a 7 month old who will not sleep more than 15 minutes in a swing and will not go down in his crib (I co-sleep with him at night). I have been trying everything to get him to nap by himself but have been unsuccessful. At this point I feel like the worst Mom on the planet. I have been so angry, frustrated and distant because I am losing my sanity. I can't seem to accomplish anything that I know needs to be done (getting them to nap, etc). We can't even put the 7 month old down at night-we have to hold him all night until I get into bed with him.
At this point I feel so disconnected from my DH that I don't know what is going to happen.
I just screamed at DH and he left with both of the kids. I feel terrible and like a psycho.
I just don't know how to make this better.
And what's more, I have only been able to nurse my son on one side, because the other side is flat and doesn't produce much milk. So, I feel really self-conscious because one of my boobs is like 3 times the size of the other one. Hmmmph.
All right, I feel a little better now that I got that off my chest. DH just doesn't understand how hard it is being a Mommy.
I 'measured' with a bra... The right is a a small B and the left is a small D... Not good.
