Not sure what's up. Ready to burst sometimes.

[dmariev]

So I have a DS 9yo and DD 7mo, am BF DD, we co-sleep, and I'm being a SAHM. DS just went back to public school after recovering from being hit by a truck last August, so until then I had him home with me. My DP is working his behind off to provide for us, and he needs his "time" every day, ie going to the gym. I rarely leave the house, and if I do, it's WITH him and the kids. I rarely have any time to myself, except for the occasional shower when everyone is asleep. Even then, I feel rushed in case DD wakes up. I am so irritated, and feel like I don't matter, and my needs don't matter. I am supposed to be supportive of everyone else with what they want to do, but I can't seem to get the same support. DD always wants to be in my arms, even when napping. 9 times out of 10 I can't put her down or she will wake up. I can't get a break. I feel like if I can't figure out some way to fix this, I am going to lose it soon. I had to stop taking my prenatals, because they are giving me digestive issues. Do I need some kind of supplements? I don't want to take meds, but if this doesn't get better, I feel I will have to resort to taking them. I'm angry, sad, lonely. I don't want to be touched, I don't want to hear anything. What's wrong with me? What can I do?

[Bokonon]

I think it's imperative that you find a way to get "you" time. You are working your tail off too, 24 hours a day. Even if it's not once a day, at least once a week, you need to be able to do something enjoyable FOR YOU, NOT with the kids. Don't ask for it. Tell your DP that you are going to do xyz on a day that he is off work. Why does he get time for himself and you get none?

[joyluc]

to you momma. No advice but couldn't read without responding. Take care of yourself.

[see mama run]

I remember feeling very similar when my dd (now 3) was tiny. She had to be in my arms 100% of the time even for naps. My husband works his tail off too, but when he got home I took a break. Even a half hour can help to rejuvenate you, especially if you know you can count on it everyday. Also running everyday, even twice sometimes helped me get through that time because she would nap in the stroller and I could just think. Insist on a break every evening. You deserve it!!