Ok, so in about 5 minutes, this journey starts. I'm scared, but I'm sure this can be done. Tomorrow is going to be the day of truth. I already have some negitive pressure that I can't seem to avoid tomorrow. My grandmother *hx of being emotionally abuse, is also a smoker..ooohh, and did I mentioin, emotionally toxic* has guilted me into cleaning her house, because I *have* to stay busy tomorrow, her words. My mom said she would handle it, I have told everyone from the beginning, that this is my weekend to detox. Anyway I will go over and try to clean, but if my own mood is too unstable, than I will leave and let my mom handle the rest. I can't let this woman get to me. She already is, I'm sure she is going to add extra pressure since it's what she does. She knows tomorrow is a big day, and I'm sure she'll try to spoil it. I'm not going to let her Question: When do I put on the patch? in the am as soon as I wake, or before I go to bed. There are no freeking instructions on exactly when to put them on.. it only says to wear each one for 24 hrs?!?! My plan as of now is to put it on as soon as I wake up. If you pray, and you happen to think of me, please send a prayer my way that I stay strong tomorrow. Its so strange to imagine my life smoke free, although it's a good strange. No more stinking, no more bronchitis, no more high risk of cancer, no more being a social outcase *well not a visable one ) ok, I'm rambling.. I'll problably be looking at this post a LOT, looking at all the advice. Thanks so much for being a support system, really. I don't have much of one IRL.
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2/20/10 at 4:11am