Need advice.. Tired and burning out

[lactivistmama]

Really long story short, I am in 2 programs a RN program and Lactation program.. I work full time, and have a 4 year old and a 6 year old.. I also am going through a seperation.. I am not usually the poor me type, but I am tired and slightly depressed lately.. I am thinking of giving up the lactation program for the time being.. but it is my dream so I am having issues with actually letting it go.. The program is 2 hours away on a good commute day, once a month for 2 consecutive days. So I end up staying down in a hotel and it costs much more that I would like it to, but the program is paid for (on a credit card, but paid for ) and I am halfway done with it.. Only 4 more times going down. I could pick up the program again next year, but I am not sure where the classes will be held and I would need to pay a $400 penalty. I am sooo lost and confused! My biggest thing is I feel I need to be with my kids more. I also am leaning towards asking my work if I could drop down to 4 days a week instead of 5 (but I am waiting until I make the decision on this class..If I drop it I will ask soon, otherwise I will wait until June..) I keep thinking to myself only 5 more months.. but it seems like an eternity and I am not producing the work I should be producing for my RN program (I am doing fine, but not as good as I could be)

Sorry te post is all over the place Thanks for any advice! I could really use some!!

[june'smom]

I have been there mama. I would say just stick with it for a little longer. I know it seems like a really long time, but 5 months is nothing. I would not give up your dream; you will regret that much more than you will regret spending this time working hard.

My advise would be to take one day off. Play with your kids, laugh, be silly, relax. Then get back on your horse (so to speak) and finish the semester.

Good luck. You will make it and you will be so happy you did.

[racheepoo]

Great, great suggestion to take ONE day off, play and be silly and reconnect with your kids. I have been there, am still there and it's hard. But it will be over someday, just one day at a time.

Really, let go of the perfectionism (I'm not doing as well as i could be) and just settle for good enough right now. Get through it and then follow your passion. Right now is about survival and making sure you're emotionally/mentally/physically healthy to juggle all these balls.

[*MamaJen*]

Oh, honey, I know how you feel. I was taking online classes on top of a full-time job as a newly single mom, and it started to get to be too much -- I was really glad to finish the classes and get some breathing room.
That said, if you possibly can I would hang on to the lactation consulting class. I know it seems like the easiest and most superfluous thing to drop, but it's paid for, it's your passion and you're almost done with it. Plus it's only two days per month.
I hope the RN program is also your job -- or are you doing that on top the full-time job? Dropping down to four days a week, if you can afford it, could be a wonderful breathing room. Even doing a half day once a week could help.
Have you looked at your life to see where you could simplify and minimize outside of work/school?

[pranamama]

keep going but i tend to drop things when life gets crazy so I know how you feel. Working 4 days would help a lot too.