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Accepting Infertility and a lack of support

post #1 of 5
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I am 31 years old and have been diagnosed with PCOS for 15 years. I am infertile. Now, I find myself in a situation where it is highly unlikely that I am going to be in a position to carry a child to term and I am trying to deal with the grief and depression I have surrounding it.

My partner had a vasectomy after the birth of his first child because of a desire to only bring one child into the world. Without drastically altering my relationship with him (we are poly) it would be difficult for me to engage in another relationship that would lead to someone willing to go through the kind of time and emotional pain that drug treatment would entail, much less anything beyond that. I came to the realization a couple of months ago that my dream of becoming a natural mother would never happen without giving up something that I find equally as fulfilling and important. The grief that I now have is occasionally overwhelming and rather than wallow in it (well, much ) I have been looking for a support group or other venue for women in my position.

While I find most boards like this helpful, its very hard to ready about women ttc or succeeding when I am at my low points.

I am working through it the way anyone would work through a death or loss, but I was hoping to find a specific support group, online or in person (I am in Atlanta) so that I would have someone to talk to. Anyone have any suggestions? Or, is there someone else reading this in a similar position who might want to talk?
post #2 of 5
I am sorry you are having this heartache.
While I can not really relate because I am not in a place of giving up the idea of having children, I just wanted to offer you this thought.

There is a precious woman on another board who has done it all to have their own child. She realized, after always trying to be positive, that she needed to mourn the loss of her never-to-be child. She may have even spent some time with those who are part of a grieving and loss group. After that she was able to have a different perspective (they are now looking at adoption, which was out of the question before). So when you have had a chance to say goodbye to the idea, then you are more open to discover a new focus. You may find yourself delighted with all the things that you currently think would be empty without a wee one.

I imagine you will have a hard time finding someone in the same state of mind as you here. You are surrounded by women who are at the whatever-it-takes point, so you may not visit here as much, if it hurts.
I am in the wanting but waiting mode right now and I have to take breaks from these boards from time to time to maintain my sanity. So I am not telling you to go away, or that you don't belong. Just a gentle reminder that the focus here is one of obsession and that it is very contagious at times.

Another consideration is that perhaps your partner is not the one for you for life. I don't know anything about you or him, so this is not a personal assessment. I am just saying maybe he is not the one you are meant to spend the rest of your life with, especially if your ideals and hopes are so different.

I hope you find the journey that is right for you.
post #3 of 5
I am sorry that you are going through this. I know how hard it is to deal with infertility. Many, many, many people do not understand nor can they help you deal with it. They don't know what to say, they don't know how you feel. I always felt like my friends thought I should be more upbeat and there were times of the month or year where I just couldn't. Even I can't relate as much as I do have one biological child. I tried for 4+ years to have another and had three miscarriages. I do mourn the opportunity to do it again.
Some infertility clinics will post support group meetings in there office. I know mine does. Call around to infertility offices and see if they know of any support groups and call around to the hospitals, too. I know the group posted at my clinic meets at the hospital.
I know it can seem that the successes are way more prevalent than the failures when you see on a message board. I don't think they are I just think perhaps we hone in on those posts more and make us feel worse.
post #4 of 5
Try your local hospital. Mine has a support group for infertility. Sometimes the groups are listed in the paper or a counselor would have the info. Also, I found the book Ended Beginnings very helpful.
post #5 of 5
Hey dear, It's really bad to hear about your situation. Don't be depressed. Depression and stress may affect your sexual life even more. Try to communicate with your partner about your desires and problems. If he really loves you then he will definitely do something for you.Both of you may also consult with a doctor to solve your problems.Take care.
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