Thanks Seie, and Hugs right back at ya! It's been about two months since we tried again and stopped talking. Right after that, I started seeing a single dad, 9 years older than me, with an awesome daughter, and I started to feel like the universe was playing with me. Here you have this nice, cool, Rockabilly dad, with a sweet pool playing daughter who get along awesome with my kids. He comes from a good family, has a good job, similar interests, and no chemistry whatsoever. He had everything the other didn't but I just could not return his feelings. So I think I am going to try to focus on a little self improvement. I have been feeling like I am on the edge for awhile and maybe some change is in order. I have always wanted to be open to love, for fear of letting something good pass me by, but the past 6 months or so have changed the way I view love and relationships and in turn how I want to approach a relationship. I'm not sure how that is yet, but I know I can't be so free with my heart. I have this hope that if I just hold on long enough this beautiful young lion will come around and make my dream come true. I don't want to let that thought go. I figure in the meanwhile I can steer my life towards better things and remain open to a better something. BTW, I have three kids too
